Le combat spirituel dans les études bibliques post-avortement

Le combat spirituel dans les études bibliques post-avortement

Spiritual Warfare in the Post Abortion Bible Studies
Par Toni Weisz/Guerre Spirituelle (Blogs de Toni)
Psaume 91:1-12

Why is spiritual warfare so intense when women decide to step out to be healed from a past abortion?

I have been in the post-abortion ministry since 2006, when I went through my first post-abortion recovery Bible study. Malheureusement, no one prepared me for what was going to be one of the most tragic and saddest times of my life. Satan came in and ripped my family to shreds. My husband and children stopped speaking to each other; my husband and I had a huge conflict; my son’s roommate stopped paying rent and stole from him; my daughter broke up with her boyfriend because of a porn addiction. All of this started two-and-a-half weeks into my first post-abortion recovery Bible study. I was in shock, and I was numb. Much of that time is still a blur to me.

To give you a better idea of how this all started, allow me to set the scene for you.

It was January 22, 2006, Sanctity of Human Life Sunday. I was sitting in my Sunday school class learning about the book of Jeremiah. More specifically, we were discussing how God called Jeremiah to be a prophet from the womb. Our teacher asked each of us, “What has God called you to do?"

For years I had asked God to reveal my calling to me. Up until that day, I thought it was just to be a godly wife and mother. But the Holy Spirit spoke to my heart and said, “I want you to help other women feel forgiven for their past abortions.”

Immediately, I raised my hand and told our group what God had just shared with me. I then shared with my Pastor after the service what God had said. I was so excited but had no idea what this would mean or how this would change my life forever.

Alors, I told my husband, “God wants me to help other women heal from their past abortions.” His reaction was, “No, that’s not good for you; that will be too hard. You should be in children’s ministry. You will be happier there.”

To respect my husband, I did nothing. I just waited. During the third week of waiting, my Pastor preached on obedience. The Holy Spirit moved in me so strongly that I couldn’t let it go. I went to my husband again and said, “John, you don’t understand. God is calling me to this, and I have to obey.” Thus began my healing journey.

Over the years, I have learned so much from the things that have happened to me on this journey. It has shaped the way I think, speak, and treat others. Malheureusement, I was not treated with kindness during the early parts of my journey.

Instead, I received harsh, condemning feedback and was told it was my fault my marriage was not going well and that I was in sin. These painful words led me to accept unacceptable treatment from my husband. My facilitators and mentors did not have experience in any kind of recovery work or co-dependency issues. They did not recognize I was being bullied and emotionally abused.

I thank God for the equipping He has given me. He has given me patience, gentleness, and love toward women who have lost a child to abortion. I know from experience that many factors go into the decision to have an abortion. We don’t grow up as young girls thinking, “I want to abort my baby.” No. It’s not a natural thing for a woman to do.

I decided to write this blog post about the spiritual warfare surrounding post-abortion recovery because many of us will be involved in these healing Bible studies in some capacity. Whether you are a prayer partner, co-facilitator, or a participant, each of us will experience some kind of spiritual warfare.

Know this: the enemy does not want Christian women healed from a past abortion. He wants to keep us in bondage and chains, locked away in a dungeon to be tormented. This frightening truth inspired the name of our eBook, “Leading Them into His Light.” Long before the eBook, God gave me a vision of a dungeon and women sitting in darkness and in chains. Jesus held my hand as I went into the dungeons to grab the women out so they could be rescued from the enemy. It’s a beautiful picture of God’s love for us.

Our eBook is available on our website for a donation of any amount. In it, nous partageons 17 women’s abortion stories (including my own) and how God turned our ashes into something beautiful for our good and His glory.

Right now, the enemy is trying to trip you up. I am experiencing it in my own home, and you might be also. The enemy will use those closest to you to take you down and discourage you. But do not waiver. God is greater and stronger than the enemy. Stay close to Him and He will protect you.

About six months ago I started reading Psalm 91 every day. I suggest you meditate upon it too. It will strengthen you for the inevitable battle ahead.

 

Des questions & Réflexions finales:

  1. What spiritual warfare have you experienced as a result of stepping out and wanting to be healed from a past abortion?

    2. What do you do to protect yourself from the enemy’s fiery darts?

    I am looking forward to an exciting year in which more women will be healed from the trauma of abortion. With the healing power of Jesus, we can reach even more women and stop this cycle of death in their families.

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L'amour de mon Sauveur pour moi

L'amour de mon Sauveur pour moi

 

L'amour de mon Sauveur pour moi
By Toni Weisz/Abuse Recovery (Blogs de Toni)
Jérémie 31:3, 1 Corinthiens 13:3-8un, Isaïe 9:6, and Zephaniah 3:17

Jérémie 31:3
The Lord appeared of old to me saying: "Oui, I have loved you with an everlasting love; Therefore with lovingkindness I have drawn you.”

Lord Jesus, what do you want me to say to the precious sisters reading this right now? You know each one intimately. What are some words of encouragement that you want them to hear from Your heart to theirs?

Petit oiseau, I want you to say to them, “I have loved you with an everlasting love. My love for you is pure, holy, righteous, gentil, gentle, and eternal. I am love; it is My character. I created love. I know many of you have been abused or neglected and you have felt rejection from those closest to you. I am so sad that you experienced those things. My desire is for every child to know they are loved from the moment of conception. If you only knew how much I loved you from a child, you would not have looked for it in other places and with other people. But your view of Me and My love were distorted by the father of lies. He doesn’t want you to know My love intimately because he knows the power of My love. It was My love for you that kept Me nailed to the cross so you could have eternal life with Me and the Father in Heaven. We loved you so much that the Father gave you the Holy Spirit, the Comforter to be with you always, so you would never have to walk alone again. All these things I am mentioning show you how precious you are to Me. I am so proud of you for stepping out of the darkness into My glorious light. You know that true healing only comes through Me, because I am the Wonderful, Counselor, Mighty God, and the Prince of Peace. I created you and I delight in you. I understand you better than you understand yourself. I know how to heal every broken part of your soul. Will you trust me today with your whole heart? Allow me to heal you in all your broken places. I want to do a miracle in your life. I will close with this. Zephaniah 3:17, ‘The Lord your God in your midst, the Mighty One, will save; He will rejoice over you with gladness, He will quiet you with His love, He will rejoice over you with singing.’ You are my beloved.”

 

Des questions:

Do you trust God?

Do you know how much you are loved by Him?

Will you allow Jesus into those broken places where you have not allowed anyone else to go?

I pray you will experience the love of God in the innermost part of your being and be forever changed.

 

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Le fils prodigue

Le fils prodigue

 

Le fils prodigue
By Toni Weisz/Abuse Recovery

Luc 15:11-24, Jérémie 31:3b-c, Luc 15:10, II Corinthians 5:21un, Éphésiens 2:1b, Luc 15:10, Révélation 7:9, Romains 8:15b-c, Révélation 19:9, et les romains 8:35

Luc 15:11-24

Then He said: “A certain man had two sons. And the younger of them said to his father, ‘Father, give me the portion of goods that falls to me.’ So he divided to them his livelihood. And not many days after, the younger son gathered all together, journeyed to a far country, and there wasted his possessions with prodigal (wasteful) living. But when he had spent all, there arose a severe famine in that land, and he began to be in want. Then he went and joined himself to a citizen of that country, and he sent him into his fields to feed swine. And he would gladly have filled his stomach with the pods that the swine ate, and no one gave him anything.

“But when he came to himself, he said, ‘How many of my father’s hired servants have bread enough and to spare, and I perish with hunger! I will arise and go to my father, and will say to him, “Father, I have sinned against heaven and before you, and I am no longer worthy to be called your son. Make me like one of your hired servants.” ’

“And he arose and came to his father. But when he was still a great way off, his father saw him and had compassion, and ran and fell on his neck and kissed him. And the son said to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and in your sight, and am no longer worthy to be called your son.’

“But the father said to his servants, ‘Bring out the best robe and put it on him, and put a ring on his hand and sandals on his feet. And bring the fatted calf here and kill it, and let us eat and be merry; for this my son was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.’ And they began to be merry.”

Some have called this, “The Running Father,” instead of, “The Prodigal Son,” because it’s the actions of the father in these scriptures that give a glimpse into the very heart of God, our heavenly Father, towards us, His children. I can imagine the father looking to the horizon every day for a glimpse of his son returning home. And every day, losing hope that he would return. Then one day, he spots his son and is filled with compassion for him. He girds up his loins (takes his robe from back to front between his legs and tucks it into his belt) and runs to his son. During Biblical times, a man of his stature in the community would not do such a thing in public, but he didn’t care what others thought. I read that the son could have been banned from the town or humiliated publicly, because he dishonored his father and their town with his sinful actions. This was another possible reason why the father ran to his son; he wanted to protect him from the humiliation and judgement of others.

Let’s put ourselves in the shoes of the prodigal son. Didn’t we run away from the homes that God had given us in part due to the dysfunction, and/or we wanted to explore the world and live our lives our own ways? Tout en, our heavenly Father is watching and looking for us to return home to Him. How it must have broken His heart to see the destructive, ungodly choices we made. And yet, He loves us with an everlasting love; He yearns for us to come home to Him (Jérémie 31:3b-c). The angels in heaven rejoice over one sinner who repents (Luc 15:10).

God sent His Son to die for us so we could be set free from the judgment we deserved because of all our sins. I love the correlation between the prodigal son’s father and our heavenly Father. Jesus became sin for us (II Corinthians 5:21un) and was naked, beaten, and crucified, and He died for us. He was humiliated and tortured for me and you. When I think of what Jesus did on the cross for me, I am overwhelmed with gratitude because I know I didn’t deserve it, but I humbly receive this precious gift of salvation that cost God the most precious thing He had, His Son.

Lastly, we too were once dead in our trespasses and sins against God, (Éphésiens 2:1b) but when we confessed our sins, like the prodigal son, we were welcomed into the family of God. There was a celebration in heaven the day you received Christ as your Savior (Luc 15:10). God has clothed you in a beautiful white robe (Révélation 7:9), put a ring on your finger, and adopted you into His Holy Family (Romains 8:15b-c). One day, we will all be together for the great feast in heaven, the marriage supper of the Lamb (Révélation 19:9). Hallelujah! Merci, Jésus!

Merci, Father, for the gift of adoption into your family. I am no longer an orphan, a stranger, or an outcast; I am yours forever.

Note: To you precious ones who did not have good earthly fathers, it is hard to think of God as a good heavenly Father. Please know that God’s heart broke when he saw the abuse and neglect you suffered at the hands of your earthly fathers. God is not like your earthly fathers; He is kind, gentle, pure, holy, and faithful. He loves you with an everlasting love. Nothing can separate you from the love of God through Christ Jesus our Lord (Romains 8:35).

Des questions:

What was your relationship like with your earthly father?

Do you see God as a good and kind Father? Sinon, please explain.

Please reach out if you need to talk or you need prayer.

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Toni

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Avortement: Notre seule option

Avortement: Notre seule option

Avortement: Notre seule option

Par Toni Weisz/Guerre Spirituelle

Scripture References: Genèse 3:15 et Genèse 1:27

Genèse 3:15« Et je mettrai inimitié entre toi et la femme, et entre ta semence et sa semence; Il t'écrasera la tête, et tu lui écraseras le talon.

Genèse 1:27"Alors Dieu créa l'homme à son image; à l'image de Dieu, il l'a créé; mâle et femelle, il les a créés.

Il faut du courage pour être guéri d'un avortement passé. Revenir en arrière pour regarder les péchés qui ont contribué à notre décision d'avorter est difficile.

Did I seek God? Non.

Did I ask a Christian friend? Non, I didn’t have any.

Did I ask my parents for help? je n'ai pas. Et vous?

Depuis le temps qu'on est petites filles, le plan de l'ennemi est de nous isoler. De cette façon, il nous a exactement là où il nous veut quand nous sommes confrontés à des décisions qui changent la vie: seul.

Dans le livre de la Genèse, nous apprenons que le but de Satan était de détruire la semence de la femme qui allait donner naissance au Messie. La réponse de Dieu à Satan dans le jardin décrit la lutte qui s'ensuivrait à cause de ce but: "Je mettrai l'inimitié (hostilité) entre toi et la femme, et entre ta semence et sa semence; Il t'écrasera la tête, and you shall bruise His heel." (Genèse 3:15).

Depuis ce moment précis, chaque enfant dans l'utérus est devenu une cible que Satan doit détruire. Satan hait les humains parce que nous sommes créés à l'image de Dieu (ref. Genèse 1:27). Il va encore plus loin dans cette haine en convainquant les femmes que l'avortement est une bonne chose. Comme c'est sinistre? C'est mauvais et contre nature pour une femme, une mère, tuer son bébé. Those of us who’ve had an abortion have done just that.

Comment avons-nous laissé cela arriver?

Voici quelques questions que nous pouvons nous poser pour découvrir la raison(s) derrière nos avortements. J'ai inclus mes propres réponses.

Des questions:

  1. Quelles ont été les circonstances qui ont conduit à votre avortement(s)?

Toni: J'étais à l'université, vivant une vie impie remplie de drogue, de l'alcool, et le sexe. Je fuyais ma douleur passée. Je voulais juste m'évader de ma vie, et ce style de vie pécheur m'a soulagé pendant un moment. Alors, quand je me suis retrouvée enceinte, J'avais peur que mon enfant soit gravement déformé par toutes les drogues et l'alcool. Je craignais aussi la réaction de mes parents.

  1. Quand tu as appris que tu étais enceinte, à qui as-tu dit?

Toni: J'ai dit à une de mes colocataires qui s'est aussi fait avorter; elle a dit que ce n'était pas grave. Elle venait d'en avoir un récemment. J'ai dit à l'une des sœurs de mon copain; elle m'a même dit où prendre rendez-vous.

  1. As-tu dit à tes parents? Si oui, quelle a été leur réaction?

Toni: Non, J'avais trop peur de leur réaction, et je ne voulais pas leur faire de mal. J'aurais aimé avoir le courage de leur dire. I made a mistake and needed help, but I did not have the courage to do that.

  1. Avez-vous parlé avec le père du bébé? A-t-il eu son mot à dire?

Toni: Il a juste supposé que j'aurais un avortement. Il ne savait pas quel était son rôle. On n'en a vraiment pas parlé. The father of that baby is my husband, and we will be celebrating our 40th anniversary this year.

  1. Votre décision d'avortement vous apporte-t-elle toujours une profonde douleur et des regrets?

Toni: Je pleure encore la perte de mon fils, Joseph. Mais par la grâce de Dieu, Il m'a guéri de mon avortement passé. Et j'attends avec impatience le jour où je verrai mon fils face à face. Merci, Dieu, pour ce cadeau.

Les membres de My Ashes to Beauty sont là pour vous accompagner et vous aider. Ce ministère vous offre espoir et guérison à travers une relation avec Jésus, la Parole de Dieu, le Saint-Esprit, et une communauté sûre pour partager votre cœur et vos larmes de votre avortement passé.

Dieu veut que ses filles soient guéries et en bonne santé pour vivre la vie abondante qu'il est venu leur donner. S'il vous plaît tendre la main si vous avez besoin d'aide supplémentaire et de guérison. Envoyez-moi un email à: arwsg4u2@gmail.com.

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Amazing Grace

Amazing Grace

Amazing Grace

par Toni Weisz/Abuse Recovery
Éphésiens 4:29-32 et les chiffres 6:24-26

Éphésiens 4:29-32
Ne laissez aucune communication corrompue sortir de votre bouche, mais ce qui est bon pour l'édification nécessaire, qu'il puisse donner la grâce aux auditeurs. Et n'attristez pas le Saint-Esprit de Dieu, par qui tu as été scellé pour le jour de la rédemption. Laisse toute amertume, colère, colère, clameur, et que les mauvaises paroles soient éloignées de toi, de toute malveillance. Et soyez gentils les uns envers les autres, tendre, se pardonner les uns les autres, comme Dieu pour Christ t'a pardonné.

Dans le Moody Manuel de Théologie, Paul Enns defines God’s grace as the unmerited or undeserving favor of God to those who are under condemnation. I did not grow up in a home where grace was displayed instead of harsh punishment. En tant qu'enfant, this caused me to be fearful and to hide.

I went to a church that was big and dark inside, and they spoke in a foreign language. L'école associée à cette église était à peu près la même. Des étudiants ont été frappés par des dirigeants lorsqu'ils ont désobéi. Parce que je n'ai pas vu la grâce et l'amour dans ces lieux de formation, I believed God was harsh and angry and ready to hit me when I got out of line. J'ai commencé à croire que ma foi en Dieu était basée sur mes bonnes œuvres, e.g., If I am good, Je serai aimé et accepté, mais si je désobéis, je serai sévèrement puni. C'est peut-être l'une des raisons pour lesquelles je n'ai pas couru vers Dieu quand j'étais 21, célibataire, et enceinte. J'avais peur que lui aussi me juge durement et me punisse sévèrement.

Au cours de ma vie d'adulte, J'ai de nouveau rencontré un environnement d'église difficile. My husband and I and our family started attending a legalistic church for several years where it was all about following the rules with no room for grace. Le Saint-Esprit en moi était si attristé que je pouvais à peine sentir ou sentir sa présence.

D'abord, je ne l'ai pas reconnu, mais je subissais des abus spirituels. Toutefois, Je voulais servir Jésus. If that meant wearing dresses 24/7 and obeying ridiculous rules, alors c'est ce que je ferais. This spiritual oppression greatly affected my soul, and I felt like I was slowly dying inside. Malheureusement, mes enfants (qui étaient au lycée à l'époque) ont également été soumis à cet abus spirituel. J'étais si reconnaissant quand nous nous sommes finalement éloignés de cet environnement toxique.

De la même manière, I have experienced harsh treatment from another ministry leader as well. J'avais l'impression de ne jamais pouvoir rien faire de bien et j'étais toujours sous un microscope. Chaque petite chose que j'ai faite a été amplifiée et transformée en un exemple public. I was so embarrassed and felt discouraged. But God called me to the abortion recovery ministry, and I was not going to stop until God told me to.

Then one day, God brought a leader into my life who was kind and gentle. Elle m'a donné la permission d'être simplement moi et a favorisé un environnement sûr dans lequel je pouvais m'ouvrir et partager les abus émotionnels et spirituels que je subissais.. I trusted her, and she truly encouraged me. C'était tellement rafraîchissant d'avoir un chef doux et gentil, tout comme Jésus.

Dans notre ministère, nous voulons que chaque femme se sente en sécurité et sache qu'elle peut partager son histoire sans jugement. Nous l'encourageons à utiliser sa voix, peut-être pour la première fois de sa vie. Nous voulons qu'elle voie l'amour de Jésus dans nos paroles et nos actions. God wants our words to speak hope and life into the lives of the women He brings to our ministry, and that is what we will always try to do.

Dieu nous a donné son cœur pour ces femmes courageuses. Nous sommes honorés de marcher à leurs côtés dans leurs parcours de guérison. Toi aussi tu es le bienvenu ici, femme courageuse. Viens comme tu es; nous t'attendons.

Réflexions finales
What is grace? La grâce est un don de Dieu; ça ne se gagne pas.

Grace is overlooking someone else’s faults and loving them where they are.

Je suis tellement reconnaissant pour l'amour et la grâce écrasants de Dieu dans ma vie. Cette grâce m'oblige à aimer les autres, étendre la miséricorde, et d'être gentil avec tout le monde. Cette grâce m'humilie quand je pense à ce que Jésus a fait pour moi sur la croix... un cadeau que je ne pourrai jamais rembourser.

Numéro 6:24-26
« Que le Seigneur vous bénisse et vous garde; the Lord make His face shine upon you and be gracious to you; the Lord lift up His countenance upon you and give you peace.”

 

Questions de réflexion:

  1. Do you judge yourself or others harshly?
  2. Do others treat you harshly?
  3. Avez-vous reçu la grâce de Dieu?
  4. Are you able to extend God’s grace to others?
  5. Comment pouvons-nous prier pour vous?

Veuillez nous contacter si vous avez besoin de parler. You can email me at: toni@myashestobeauty.com.

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Toni

 

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