Pensamiento apestoso: Justifying My Sin

por Toni Weisz/Pensamiento apestoso

Scriptures: Génesis 3:8-13 y proverbios 11:14b

“And they heard the sound of the Lord God walking in the garden in the cool of the day, y Adán y su esposa se escondieron de la presencia del Señor Dios entre los árboles del jardín.. Entonces el Señor Dios llamó a Adán y le dijo, "Dónde estás?” So he said, “Escuché tu voz en el jardín, y tuve miedo porque estaba desnudo; and I hid myself.” And He said, “¿Quién te dijo que estabas desnuda?? ¿Has comido del árbol del cual te mandé que no comieras??” Then the man said, “La mujer que me diste por compañera, ella me dio del arbol, and I ate.” And the Lord God said to the woman, “¿Qué es esto que has hecho??” The woman said, “La serpiente me engañó, and I ate.” Genesis 3:8-13

Yo defino la justificación, more specifically, justifying my sin, as the distorted belief that I am making a right or reasonable decision when, in fact, the opposite is true. He escuchado casi todas las excusas para justificar la elección de una mujer por abortar.; Yo tuve varios. I allowed the enemy to isolate me and lie to me, tal como lo hizo con Adán y Eva cuando comieron del fruto prohibido y pecaron contra Dios.

Como resultado de mi pecado, I rushed to make my decision and did not ask for help or discuss it with anyone. Es con lo único que nosotras como mujeres no pedimos ayuda., porqué es eso? Hablamos con nuestros amigos o familiares sobre otras decisiones que tomamos., pero ¿por qué no este??

Creo que el enemigo inmediatamente ataca y comienza a inundar nuestras mentes con todo tipo de caos., junto con mentiras, miedo, y ansiedad. This combination is overwhelming to our minds, and we scramble to stop the noise in our heads so we can return to normal.

No tuve mi aborto hasta mi segundo trimestre, but I had my mind made up immediately that I was going to have an abortion. I had to wait months to have my procedure because I didn’t follow protocol and ate before my first scheduled abortion and had to reschedule. I had to make two abortion appointments! Tal vez Dios me estaba dando una manera de escapar, pero no estaba buscando su consejo. En cambio, I felt justified in my decision to move forward with the abortion.

The reasons I used to justify my sin of abortion were the following: Creí la mentira de que mi bebé sufriría graves deformaciones porque estaba consumiendo drogas fuertes., bebiendo excesivamente, y fumar 2-3 paquetes de cigarrillos por día. I was still in college in Ohio with no job and I thought, “I can’t have a child now!” I believed the father of the child would leave me to raise the child on my own.

Pero la razón más importante fue que tenía miedo de contarles a mis padres.. I regret that I did not have the courage to admit to my parents that I made a mistake and I needed help. Nunca les di la oportunidad de opinar sobre mi decisión porque tomé el asunto en mis propias manos.. Mi miedo y mi orgullo me impidieron decir la verdad.. I wish I had told them because I could have my 45-year-old son with me today. Pero no puedo volver atrás y cambiar mi pasado.. All I can do is learn from it and understand why this broken frightened woman could not tell her parents the truth.

I remember after watching the movie, "No planificado", Estaba en el lavabo de mi cuarto de lavado y el Espíritu Santo susurró a mi corazón., “Every child in the womb is mine.” Tears filled my eyes and I replied, “I know, Caballero, and I robbed you of the baby in my womb and I am so sorry.”

El pecado nunca se justifica. Mirando hacia atrás a nuestros primeros padres, Adán y Eva, we see they pointed their finger at someone else to justify their sin before God. The exchange is quite interesting, and we use the same tactics today. In Genesis Chapter 3, after Adam and Eve ate the forbidden fruit, God called to them, "Dónde estás?” God called Adam by his name wanting him to confess his sin, but instead he justified his sin and accused the woman who God gave him. And Eve likewise accused the serpent. En lugar de asumir la responsabilidad de sus pecados, culparon a alguien más. Su orgullo les impidió humillarse ante Dios y arrepentirse de su pecado.. Mi orgullo me impidió pedir ayuda a mis padres y a Dios en mi decisión de abortar.. En cambio, I listened to the devil, y sufrí durante años a consecuencia de mi decisión.

For you dear ones who have been abused, rejected, and abandoned by those who were supposed to love and nurture you, the pain of what you endured just breaks my heart. It broke God’s too. God wants you healed. He is a good Father. He is kind, compassionate, cariñoso, faithful, and full of grace. He is not like your earthly family who are flawed and a product of their own destructive home environments. Your Father in heaven is perfect. He is love; it is His character.

We are here to help you make life-affirming, God-glorifying decisions in your lives. Proverbios 11:14b, “In the multitude of counselors, there is safety.” Please reach out if you are struggling with making good decisions that honor God. You can break the unhealthy destructive cycle and replace it with one that is pleasing to God and gives you peace in your soul.

Preguntas para tomar en serio:

1. ¿Cuáles fueron tus razones para abortar?(s) que en su momento sentiste que estabas justificado? ¿Cuáles fueron las mentiras que creíste??

2. For those who have been abused, how did you justify this sin against you? ¿Cuáles fueron las mentiras que creíste??

3. ¿Cuál es la verdad que Dios te ha mostrado??

4. Cómo podemos orar por ti?

Por favor comuníquese si necesita hablar. You can email me at: toni@myashestobeauty.com. Please don’t suffer alone anymore. You have a community of women who are available to walk alongside you to help you.

Eres amado,

Toni