Pensée puante: Ma vision déformée de moi

Pensée puante: Ma vision déformée de moi

Pensée puante: Ma vision déformée de moi


par Toni Weisz / Prise de pute

 

Références bibliques: Isaïe 43:18–19, Psaume 62:6-8, Psaume 27:10, John 8:32, et les romains 5:9

Pensée puante refers to the negative or disturbing thoughts that torment us, especially when we are ARRÊT (Hfaim, UNEen colère, Lseul ou Tirrité). We will be looking at our distorted view of self. We will learn to discern the truth from the lies we have believed all of our lives. Our goal is to equip you so you can have victory in every area of your life.

Isaïe 43:18–19
“Do not remember the former things, nor consider the things of old. Behold, I will do a new thing, now it shall spring forth; shall you not know it? I will even make a road in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.”

Psaume 62: 6–8
“He only is my rock and my salvation; He is my defense; I shall not be moved. In God is my salvation and my glory; The rock of my strength, and my refuge, is in God. Trust in Him at all times, you people; pour out your heart before Him; God is a refuge for us.”

Psaume 27:10
When my father and mother forsake me, the Lord will take care of me.

John 8:32
“And you shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.”

Romains 5:9
Much more then, having now been justified by His blood, we shall be saved from wrath through Him.

I was the oldest of three and came from a strict second-generation, Italian-American family. My father and his two brothers and sister ran a family-owned construction company started by my grandfather.

My grandfather had a drinking problem. And my dad acted like an alcoholic even though he did not drink. I refer to his behavior as a “rageaholic.” He worked extremely long hours and was dealing with a lot of stress and family drama. He was not able to communicate in a healthy manner without becoming angry and raising his voice. He had a very short fuse. Alors, when he was home, I would literally want to run and hide.

My mom tried her best to control our home environment as not to cause my dad any stress. We had to be very quiet and obedient when he was home. The slightest thing could set him off. When my dad was at work, my mom had her own way of dealing with the chaos in our home. She yelled a lot too. It wasn’t a very calm or peaceful environment. But I believe they did the best they could. They were preoccupied with putting out fires that my sister and brother were starting. It was easy for me to hide in the shadows.

As a young child, how was I supposed to get the love and attention I needed? After the “good, quiet one” persona was not working anymore, I started sneaking Scotch whiskey from my parents’ liquor cabinet at 12 ans. Now I was really hiding because of all of my secrets, which now were piling up, and it became even more difficult to keep up my façade. By 13, I was getting high and doing other drugs. À 16, I was having sex; then the unthinkable, my abortion at 21. My life was a disaster, one poor decision after another led me down a very dark path. I was very alone in this pit even though I had friends; no one really knew what I was suffering with because I wore the perfect mask. I was right where the evil one wanted me. Isolated, seul, and hiding in my secrets.

Now in my early 30’s after many years of destructive choices, unhealthy copying mechanisms and addictions, my self-loathing was at an all-time high. My depression would last for weeks at a time, and it was preventing me from functioning normally, and all the pain I had been stuffing all my life was coming out sideways. I had no control over it. I was like a walking volcano. I literally just wanted to end this torment of a life. But God gave me two children, and I wasn’t going to leave them without a mom. Alors, I decided I needed to do something different because what I was doing was not working. I was tired of putting my mask on every day and pretending.

I felt I was not worthy to be loved. En fait, I thought I deserved to be emotionally abused by others because of my sin. I did not see myself as a person of value to anyone, not even to God. This destructive pattern would continue until I was 34, when by the grace of God, I heard the gospel and within 4 weeks got saved and asked Jesus to forgive my sins and be my Lord and Savior. The most beautiful and memorable day of my life is February 6, 1994, when I became born-again.

Even after my salvation, I felt I had to work for love and approval from God and especially from others in leadership at Church. My people-pleasing was consuming my life, and God showed me that this is idolatry, that anything that I put above Him is a sin.

Over the past 20 années, God has slowly been showing me my character defects and areas of sin, my codependency, people-pleasing, and lack of clear boundaries and how I was enabling unhealthy behavior. I didn’t love or respect myself so how could I expect others to. I allowed people to walk all over me, to manipulate and control me, but slowly over time, I started putting up boundaries and using my voice.

God helped me to see myself through His eyes of love, care, and compassion. Back in 2015 when struggling with rejection, I wrote out these words of affirmation that I read out loud to myself every day: je suis digne, je suis aimé, J'appartiens, je suis accepté, je suis adopté, Je suis confiant et compétent, I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, je suis un enfant de Dieu, Je suis victorieux en Christ, just to name a few. This is my Spiritual Armor; I put this on every morning to protect myself from the fiery darts of the enemy. Our battle is won and lost in our minds. What we believe about ourselves and about God matters. God’s word is truth, and the truth will make you free.

I hope I never take for granted the miracle that took place in my life 31 years ago, when I received the gift of salvation through the blood of Jesus shed on the cross for me.

QUESTIONS TO TAKE TO HEART:

  1. How has your distorted view of yourself opened you up to all kinds of abuse and sin as a way to cope with your pain?
  2. How did you see yourself?
  3. Who does God say you are? Give examples of Biblical truth.
  4. What do you do to put your Spiritual Armor on daily to protect yourself from the enemy?
  5. Comment pouvons-nous prier pour vous?

I pray this topic has been helpful for you if you need to talk, you can text me or email me at: toni@myashestobeauty.com.

Tu es aimé, Toni

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Prière pour le réveil

Prière pour le réveil

Prière pour le réveil
by Toni Weisz/Spiritual Discipline

Références bibliques: Psaume 51:117, Psaume 139:2324,
2 Timothy 2:21, James 5:16, et Éphésiens 4:2931

Lire le Psaume 51:1–17

Dans Février 1970, revival broke out at Asbury College in Wilmore, Kentucky.

On Wednesday, Février 8, 2023 (53 années later almost to the day), revival again broke out on the campus at Ashbury University in Wilmore, Kentucky. UNEfter chapel service, some students lingered for spontaneous worship, prayer, and confession. The revival continued for many days and spread to other universities, and many people traveled from all over the world to experience God in that place.

PRAYER & SCRIPTURE

We are hungry for Ouiou, Seigneur. Just like in 1970, there was much turmoil in the world, the Vietnam War, protests, bad economy, high gas prices, inflation, and chaos all around, not much different today in our world. People are hurting. They are confused et fearful about what the future will bring. But our hope is in You, Seigneur. Only You know it all, see it all, and control it all.

We humble ourselves before you today and ask Your Holy Spirit to help us. We cry out as David did in the Psalms.

Psaume 139:23–24
Search us, O God, and know our hearts. Try us, and know our thoughts and see if there be any wicked way in us, and lead us in the way everlasting.

Lord God, remove any blindness that may be keeping us from repenting of sin in our lives.

2 Timothy 2:21
Therefore, if anyone cleanses himself from these things, he will be a vessel for honor, sanctified, useful to the Master, prepared for every good work.

We want to be clean vessels sanctified and useful in your kingdom work. Purify us by the Word of God and the working of the Holy Spirit in our lives.

Father God, we are expecting You to move mightily to heal the brokenhearted and to heal all our wounds. We are waiting for you to heal us and our families from disease and demonic oppression, in the name of Jesus, nous prions.

We are praying for our family members, friends, and neighbors who do not know Ouiou yet, that Your Holy Spirit will break their hearts of stone and give them a heart of flesh. Have mercy upon them, O Lord. We are crying out to You for revival in our own hearts, our homes, our neighborhood, our state, our nation, and the world. Viens, Holy Spirit, and have Your will and Your way in us today.

We are surrendering all to You today. We are asking, seeking, and knocking on the door. Let revival continue right here and right now in us.

In the powerful name of Jesus, nous prions, amen.

James 5:16
Confess your faults one to another and pray one for another that ye may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much.

Éphésiens 4:29-31
Let no corrupt word proceed out of your mouth, mais ce qui est bon pour l'édification nécessaire, qu'il puisse donner la grâce aux auditeurs. Et n'attristez pas le Saint-Esprit de Dieu, par qui tu as été scellé pour le jour de la rédemption. Laisse toute amertume, colère, colère, clameur, et que les mauvaises paroles soient éloignées de toi, de toute malveillance. And be kind to one another, tendre, se pardonner les uns les autres, even as God in Christ forgave you.

 

Preparation for Revival:

  1. Is there someone who you are harboring unforgiveness toward for something they did or did not do?

Would you like to confess that right now?

 

  1. Are you willfully going against what you know is right?

Would you like to confess that now?

 

  1. Is there something that you are unknowingly doing that is not honoring to God? Ask the Lord to show you so you can repent.

Would you like to confess that now?

 

  1. Are you angry with God because you are really struggling with loneliness, depression, loss of job, health issues, a relationship, and God is not moving fast enough and you are really suffering?

Would you like to confess that now?

 

Please reach out if you need prayer or encouragement. Ouiou can email me at: toni@myashestobeauty.com.

 

Tu es aimé,

Toni

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Avez-vous été libéré?

Avez-vous été libéré?

Avez-vous été libéré?

Par Toni Weisz/Disciplines spirituelles

Références bibliques: John 8:31-32, 34-36, Romains 6: 12-14, and James 5:16

John 8:31-32, 34-36
So Jesus said unto the Jews who had believed him, “If you abide in my word, you are truly my disciples, and you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free. Jesus answered them, “Truly, truly, I say to you, everyone who practices sin is a slave to sin. The slave does not remain in the house forever; the son remains forever. So if the Son sets you free, you are free indeed.

Romains 6:12-14
Let not sin therefore reign in your mortal body, to make you obey its passions. Do not present your members to sin as instruments for unrighteousness, but present yourselves to God as those who have been brought from death to life, and your members to God as instruments for righteousness. For sin will not have dominion over you, since you are not under the law but under grace.

Are you still struggling with a distorted view of yourself, Dieu, ou d'autres? When did that start for you?

It takes years and perhaps decades of hard work to undo the damage that was done to us as children, teens, and young adults.

How can we be set free to live the abundant life Jesus came to give us?

I’d like to share four keys that can help you be set free.

1.) I believe we need to confess sin daily.

Some questions to take to heart:

  • What are my motives?
  • Why am I so easily offended?
  • Why am I being taken advantage of by others?
  • Why can’t I say no?
  • Why am I fearful or anxious when I have to speak to a certain person?

When we have been mistreated, abused, or neglected or have an abortion in our past, we develop deep wounds which distort our thinking and emotional development. It’s only God who can help us heal in those areas and grow to our full potential.

I heard this statement, but I do not know who coined it:

"If you want to be forgiven, confess your sins to God. If you want to change, confess your sins to another person so they can help you be accountable."

James 5:16
Therefore, confess your sins one to another and pray one to another that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person has great power as it is working.

2.) I feel a personal quiet time with the Lord is essential.

It’s hard for some of us to trust anyone, even God. Slowly, as you spend time with God, in His word, He will reveal His heart towards you. You will begin to see how much He does love you and how He cares about every part of your life. He never tires to hear about what’s going on in your life. He never slumbers. He is always available any time, day or night. That gives me great comfort knowing God is always there for me because so many people have let me down over the years. But God is always faithful.

3.) Sharing your story in a safe environment (such as our conference call) is therapeutic and condusive to healing.

It’s important for our healing that we can share our stories with others in a safe and loving environment without judgment. Once we do that, our secrets no longer have power over us.

Is there some part of your story you have not shared with others?

Now would be a good time to do that. If you cannot speak on the conference appel, then write it down and email it to me à: arwsg4u2@gmail.com.

By sharing our stories with each other, we can pray and encourage each other on our healing journey. You are not alone; that is a lie from the devil.

4.) We must be willing to do the hard work.

I am constantly reading books to help me heal and facilitate a healing group where women feel loved and safe. Our learning, healing and equipping is an ongoing process that will continue until the day we see Jesus. God is still healing me when I allow Him and the Holy Spirit to speak truth into my life. I have to be consciously listening to Him. Speak to God all day long. He is listening and waiting for you to call out to Him.

If you do these four things, it will help you to be set free in every area of your life.

Are you willing to allow Jesus to take you by the hand and lead you on this healing journey?

I pray this has been helpful for you. S'il vous plaît tendre la main. We are waiting to hear from you. Please go to our contact page to get our email and phone number.

Tu es aimé,
Toni

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Je suis toujours responsable de mes actes

Je suis toujours responsable de mes actes

Je suis toujours responsable de mes actes
par Toni Weisz/Outils de récupération

Romains 3:23, John 16:8, Philippiens 4:13, Matthieu 7:7-8, et Psaume 147:3

Nous avons tous grandi dans des foyers dysfonctionnels parce que nous sommes tous nés dans le péché et avons une nature pécheresse. La Bible dit, « Car tous ont péché et sont privés de la gloire de Dieu. » (Romains 3:23). Certains d'entre nous ont connu une extrême négligence, abuser de, abandon, et le rejet. Cela a provoqué une blessure profonde dans nos âmes et une perception déformée de l'amour.. A cause de ce traumatisme, nous ne faisons pas confiance aux autres et avons peur qu’ils s’approchent trop près; nous ne voulons plus être blessés. Pour cette raison, il est difficile de croire que Dieu ne nous fera pas de mal non plus. De nombreuses femmes ont du mal à développer une relation intime avec Dieu, notre Père céleste, parce qu'ils n'avaient pas de bonnes relations avec leur père terrestre.

Peu importe ce que nous avons vécu dans nos vies, nous sommes toujours responsables de réparer, en bonne santé, décisions pieuses. C’est le Saint-Esprit en nous qui nous conduit à marcher dans la vérité et nous convainc de péché., droiture, et jugement (Lire Jean 16:8). Nous avons la capacité, grâce à l'aide du Saint-Esprit, de arrêt le cycle de dysfonctionnement provenant de notre pays d’origine ou les traumatismes que nous avons vécus ailleurs.

Nous pouvons faire de bons choix. Nous ne sommes pas obligés de réagir aux choses sans nous arrêter, prier, et y réfléchir. Nous contrôlons nos pensées et nos actions. En fait, C'est le seulement chose sur laquelle nous avons le contrôle. Nous devons prendre la décision consciente de ne pas perpétuer ce dysfonctionnement et de le transmettre à nos enfants et aux générations futures.. La seule façon d'y parvenir est de:

1. Avoir une relation avec Jésus.

2. Obtenir de l'aide soit par le biais de conseils chrétiens et/ou de réunions de rétablissement, et lire des livres utiles.

3. Avoir des responsabilités : une personne ou une communauté sûre pour vous aider à continuer à travailler sur vous-même.

Des questions:

  1. Sur quels domaines avez-vous dû travailler à la suite d'un traumatisme passé?
    Toni:
    Le rejet a été une énorme blessure pour moi. Faire également confiance aux autres pour ne pas contrôler, manipuler, et m'utiliser en était une autre. J'ai dû apprendre à utiliser ma voix et à imposer des limites saines pour me protéger. J'ai dû apprendre la maîtrise de soi parce que j'étais un volcan ambulant, rempli de rage. J'ai appris pourquoi j'étais si en colère et j'ai accepté cela. Dieu m'a guéri dans tous ces domaines parce que j'étais prêt à le laisser entrer et à me guérir..
  2. Quels sont les domaines sur lesquels vous devez encore travailler?
    Toni: J'ai eu du mal avec la codépendance, alors j'ai commencé à lire le livre, Plus de codépendance, par Suellen McDolly. Cela m'a été très utile de m'arrêter et de vérifier ma motivation pour faire les choses que je faisais.. Je veux toujours être prêt à travailler sur moi-même. Quand je suis déclenché par quelque chose, Je demande à Dieu de me montrer ce qui se passe réellement. J'ai l'habitude de tenir un journal lorsque cela se produit parce que j'ai besoin de l'entendre dans un endroit où/quand je suis prêt à l'écouter..

Notre guérison est un processus qui dure toute la vie, mais si Dieu est impliqué, nous serons victorieux. Nous pouvons tout faire par le Christ qui nous fortifie (Lire Philippiens 4:13). Si vous commencez tout juste votre parcours de guérison, continue de demander à Dieu de t'aider, continue de le chercher de tout ton cœur, et continuez à frapper à la porte pour plus de perspicacité et de sagesse divine (Lire Matthieu 7:7-8). Dieu est fidèle, et Il veut panser ton cœur brisé et guérir tes blessures (Lire le Psaume 147:3).

Je prie pour que cela soit utile. S'il vous plaît tendre la main; nous sommes là pour vous aider et prier pour vous.

Tu es aimé,
Toni

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Ma vie serait à jamais changée (Partie 6): Le dernier chapitre

April’s Story

My Life Would be Forever Changed (Partie 6)
Le dernier chapitre

In July 1997, I accepted the Lord into my life. I felt like I was a new person. I was alive in Christ. The same year I accepted the Lord into my life, I met my husband, and we were married three years later. I got pregnant right away, but sadly, lost the baby. This was ten years after my abortion. Of course, I thought God was punishing me. But I soon learned that it wasn’t God. It was actually my body holding onto the pain of the past. During that time, I had a lot of anxiety and fear in my heart. I knew God was near, but I didn’t really believe it. I was afraid in my own home and scared to drive my car on the freeway. I asked myself how I could possibly raise a baby with this hurt still inside me. I was holding onto everything. I walked around with a smile on, but deep down I was hurting.

Soon after this pregnancy, I became pregnant again. Alors, in 2002, we had our first child! Our second child followed a few years later in 2005. Malheureusement, right after the birth of our second child, I became really crazy about germs. I couldn’t do it; I felt helpless in my own body. I was so afraid I was going to die. I started to search my heart, and I realized that I was afraid of death for our children. Why was I afraid of death? Because I had faced death myself as a child. Later, I found out that death has NO sting!!!

Aujourd'hui, I have the honor and privilege of walking women through their abortion stories as well as mentoring women that have been through trauma, including sexual abuse. I get to see women be set free from the pain of their past and walk in their newfound freedom in Christ. My goal is to help lead women to freedom from the bondage that has been holding them back.

I now hold a Mental Health Coaching Certificate, and I am working on getting a Christian Counseling Certificate. I have been through the Making Life Disciples course and some trauma classes through church. But one of my favorite accomplishments to date is that I’ve completed one year of Bible College to be able to minister the Word to those who are lost and hurting. #SetFree

I share my whole story to tell you that our God is good, no matter what our circumstances. When I was around drugs and alcohol throughout my life, God was good. When I was kidnapped and raped at 12, God was good. When I had an abortion, God was good. When I was living in sin, God was good. When I felt shame, culpabilité, or fear, God was right there. When I was afraid, God was revealed. When death was around me, God saved me. When I was hopeless, God was full of hope for me. God is forgiveness and my help. What would I do without my Father? He saved me, forgave me, and redeemed me. It was only recently that I discovered that God has been with me all along. He has been pursuing me and chasing me since the day I was born.

I believe that Jesus takes all the hurt on Himself. I believe that I am the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus. I believe I am reconciled to Him. Merci, Jésus, that the old is gone and the new has come. Merci, Jésus, that I am highly favored and deeply loved. Thank you that I am a called out, separated person for God’s Kingdom work. Merci, Jésus, I am a New Creation. Merci, Jésus, for Your Amazing Grace!!!