Sono ancora responsabile delle mie azioni

Sono ancora responsabile delle mie azioni

I am Still Responsible for my Actions
by Toni Weisz/Recovery Tools

romani 3:23, John 16:8, Filippesi 4:13, Matteo 7:7-8, e Salmo 147:3

Siamo tutti cresciuti in famiglie disfunzionali perché siamo tutti nati nel peccato e abbiamo una natura peccaminosa. The Bible says, “For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.” (romani 3:23). Some of us have experienced extreme neglect, abuso, abandonment, and rejection. This has caused a deep wound in our souls and a distorted perception of love. Because of this trauma, we don’t trust others and are fearful of them coming too close; we don’t want to be hurt again. For this reason, it is hard to trust that God is not going to hurt us either. Many women struggle developing an intimate relationship with God, our Heavenly Father, because they did not have a good relationship with their earthly father.

Regardless of what we have experienced in our lives, we are still responsible to make good, healthy, godly decisions. It’s the Holy Spirit inside us that leads us to walk in the truth and convicts us of sin, righteousness, and judgement (Read John 16:8). We have the ability through the help of the Holy Spirit to stop the cycle of dysfunction stemming from our home of origin or the traumas we’ve experienced elsewhere.

We can make good choices. We do not have to react to things without pausing, praying, and thinking through them. We are in control of our thoughts and actions. In fact, it’s the only thing we have control over. We have to make a conscious decision not to perpetuate this dysfunction and pass it onto our children and future generations. The only way we can do that is by:

1. Having a relationship with Jesus.

2. Getting help either through Christian counselling and/or recovery meetings, and reading helpful books.

3. Having accountability—a safe person or community to help keep you working on yourself.

Domande:

  1. What areas did you have to work on as a result of past trauma?
    Toni:     Rejection was a huge wound for me. Also trusting others not to control, manipulate, and use me was another. I had to learn to use my voice and put-up healthy boundaries to protect myself. I had to learn self-control because I was a walking volcano, filled with rage. I learned why I was so angry and came to terms with that. God has healed me in all these areas because I was willing to let Him in and heal me.
  2. What are some areas you still need to work on?
    Toni: I have been struggling with codependency, so I started reading the book, Codependency No More, by Suellen McDolly. It has been very helpful for me to stop and check my motivation for doing the things I was doing. I always want to be willing to work on myself. When I am triggered by something, I ask God to show me what’s really going on. I usually journal when this happens because I need to hear from Him in a place where/when I am ready to listen.

Our healing is a lifelong process, but if God is involved in it, we will be victorious. We can do all things through Christ who strengthens us (Read Philippians 4:13). If you are just starting your healing journey, keep asking God to help you, keep seeking Him with your whole heart, and keep knocking on the door for more insight and godly wisdom (Read Matthew 7:7-8). God is faithful, and He wants to bind up your broken heart and heal your wounds (Read Psalm 147:3).

I pray this was helpful. Per favore, contattaci; we are here to help you and to pray for you.

Sei amato,
Toni

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La guerra spirituale negli studi biblici post-aborto

La guerra spirituale negli studi biblici post-aborto

Spiritual Warfare in the Post Abortion Bible Studies
By Toni Weisz/Spiritual Warfare (Blog di Toni)
Salmo 91:1-12

Why is spiritual warfare so intense when women decide to step out to be healed from a past abortion?

I have been in the post-abortion ministry since 2006, when I went through my first post-abortion recovery Bible study. Unfortunately, no one prepared me for what was going to be one of the most tragic and saddest times of my life. Satan came in and ripped my family to shreds. My husband and children stopped speaking to each other; my husband and I had a huge conflict; my son’s roommate stopped paying rent and stole from him; my daughter broke up with her boyfriend because of a porn addiction. All of this started two-and-a-half weeks into my first post-abortion recovery Bible study. I was in shock, and I was numb. Much of that time is still a blur to me.

To give you a better idea of how this all started, allow me to set the scene for you.

It was January 22, 2006, Sanctity of Human Life Sunday. I was sitting in my Sunday school class learning about the book of Jeremiah. More specifically, we were discussing how God called Jeremiah to be a prophet from the womb. Our teacher asked each of us, “What has God called you to do?”

For years I had asked God to reveal my calling to me. Up until that day, I thought it was just to be a godly wife and mother. But the Holy Spirit spoke to my heart and said, “I want you to help other women feel forgiven for their past abortions.”

Immediately, I raised my hand and told our group what God had just shared with me. I then shared with my Pastor after the service what God had said. I was so excited but had no idea what this would mean or how this would change my life forever.

Così, I told my husband, “God wants me to help other women heal from their past abortions.” His reaction was, “No, that’s not good for you; that will be too hard. You should be in children’s ministry. You will be happier there.”

To respect my husband, I did nothing. I just waited. During the third week of waiting, my Pastor preached on obedience. The Holy Spirit moved in me so strongly that I couldn’t let it go. I went to my husband again and said, “John, you don’t understand. God is calling me to this, and I have to obey.” Thus began my healing journey.

Over the years, I have learned so much from the things that have happened to me on this journey. It has shaped the way I think, speak, and treat others. Unfortunately, I was not treated with kindness during the early parts of my journey.

Invece, I received harsh, condemning feedback and was told it was my fault my marriage was not going well and that I was in sin. These painful words led me to accept unacceptable treatment from my husband. My facilitators and mentors did not have experience in any kind of recovery work or co-dependency issues. They did not recognize I was being bullied and emotionally abused.

I thank God for the equipping He has given me. He has given me patience, gentleness, and love toward women who have lost a child to abortion. I know from experience that many factors go into the decision to have an abortion. We don’t grow up as young girls thinking, “I want to abort my baby.” No. It’s not a natural thing for a woman to do.

I decided to write this blog post about the spiritual warfare surrounding post-abortion recovery because many of us will be involved in these healing Bible studies in some capacity. Whether you are a prayer partner, co-facilitator, or a participant, each of us will experience some kind of spiritual warfare.

Know this: the enemy does not want Christian women healed from a past abortion. He wants to keep us in bondage and chains, locked away in a dungeon to be tormented. This frightening truth inspired the name of our eBook, “Leading Them into His Light.” Long before the eBook, God gave me a vision of a dungeon and women sitting in darkness and in chains. Jesus held my hand as I went into the dungeons to grab the women out so they could be rescued from the enemy. It’s a beautiful picture of God’s love for us.

Our eBook is available on our website for a donation of any amount. In it, we share 17 women’s abortion stories (including my own) and how God turned our ashes into something beautiful for our good and His glory.

Right now, the enemy is trying to trip you up. I am experiencing it in my own home, and you might be also. The enemy will use those closest to you to take you down and discourage you. But do not waiver. God is greater and stronger than the enemy. Stay close to Him and He will protect you.

About six months ago I started reading Psalm 91 every day. I suggest you meditate upon it too. It will strengthen you for the inevitable battle ahead.

 

Domande & Closing Thoughts:

  1. What spiritual warfare have you experienced as a result of stepping out and wanting to be healed from a past abortion?

    2. What do you do to protect yourself from the enemy’s fiery darts?

    I am looking forward to an exciting year in which more women will be healed from the trauma of abortion. With the healing power of Jesus, we can reach even more women and stop this cycle of death in their families.

Sei amato,
Toni

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L'amore del mio Salvatore per me

L'amore del mio Salvatore per me

 

L'amore del mio Salvatore per me
Di Toni Weisz/Abuso Recovery (Blog di Toni)
Geremia 31:3, 1 Corinthians 13:3-8un, Isaia 9:6, and Zephaniah 3:17

Geremia 31:3
The Lord appeared of old to me saying: “Yes, I have loved you with an everlasting love; Therefore with lovingkindness I have drawn you.”

Lord Jesus, what do you want me to say to the precious sisters reading this right now? You know each one intimately. What are some words of encouragement that you want them to hear from Your heart to theirs?

Little Bird, I want you to say to them, “I have loved you with an everlasting love. My love for you is pure, santo, righteous, kind, gentile, and eternal. I am love; it is My character. I created love. I know many of you have been abused or neglected and you have felt rejection from those closest to you. I am so sad that you experienced those things. My desire is for every child to know they are loved from the moment of conception. If you only knew how much I loved you from a child, you would not have looked for it in other places and with other people. But your view of Me and My love were distorted by the father of lies. He doesn’t want you to know My love intimately because he knows the power of My love. It was My love for you that kept Me nailed to the cross so you could have eternal life with Me and the Father in Heaven. We loved you so much that the Father gave you the Holy Spirit, the Comforter to be with you always, so you would never have to walk alone again. All these things I am mentioning show you how precious you are to Me. I am so proud of you for stepping out of the darkness into My glorious light. You know that true healing only comes through Me, because I am the Wonderful, Counselor, Mighty God, and the Prince of Peace. I created you and I delight in you. I understand you better than you understand yourself. I know how to heal every broken part of your soul. Will you trust me today with your whole heart? Allow me to heal you in all your broken places. I want to do a miracle in your life. I will close with this. Zephaniah 3:17, ‘The Lord your God in your midst, the Mighty One, will save; He will rejoice over you with gladness, He will quiet you with His love, He will rejoice over you with singing.’ You are my beloved.”

 

Domande:

Do you trust God?

Do you know how much you are loved by Him?

Will you allow Jesus into those broken places where you have not allowed anyone else to go?

I pray you will experience the love of God in the innermost part of your being and be forever changed.

 

Sei amato,
Toni

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Il figliol prodigo

Il figliol prodigo

 

Il figliol prodigo
Di Toni Weisz/Abuso Recovery

Luca 15:11-24, Geremia 31:3a.C, Luca 15:10, II Corinzi 5:21un, Efesini 2:1B, Luca 15:10, Rivelazione 7:9, romani 8:15a.C, Rivelazione 19:9, e romani 8:35

Luca 15:11-24

Poi ha detto: “Un certo uomo aveva due figli. E il più giovane di loro ha detto a suo padre, 'Padre, Dammi la parte dei beni che mi cade. "Così ha diviso loro il suo sostentamento. E non molti giorni dopo, Il figlio minore si è riunito tutti insieme, viaggiato in un paese lontano, e ci sono state sprecate i suoi beni con prodigo (dispendioso) vita. Ma quando aveva trascorso tutto, Si è verificato una grave carestia in quella terra, e ha iniziato a essere in desiderata. Poi andò e si unì a un cittadino di quel paese, e lo mandò nei suoi campi per nutrire suini. E avrebbe volentieri riempiti gli stomaci con i baccelli che i suini mangiavano, E nessuno gli ha dato niente.

“Ma quando è venuto da solo, ha detto, 'Quanti dei servitori assunti di mio padre hanno abbastanza pane e da risparmiare, E perisco la fame! Mi sorgerò e andrò da mio padre, e gli dirò, "Padre, Ho peccato contro il paradiso e davanti a te, e non sono più degno di essere chiamato tuo figlio. Fammi come uno dei tuoi servitori. " '

“E si alzò e venne da suo padre. Ma quando era ancora molto lontano, Suo padre lo vide e aveva compassione, e corse e cadde sul collo e lo baciò. E il figlio gli disse, 'Padre, Ho peccato contro il paradiso e alla tua vista, e non sono più degno di essere chiamato tuo figlio. "

“Ma il padre ha detto ai suoi servitori, 'Tira fuori la veste migliore e mettilo su di lui, e mette un anello sulla mano e sandali in piedi. E porta qui il vitello grasso e uccidilo, E mangiamo e sii allegro; Per questo mio figlio era morto ed è di nuovo vivo; Era perso e si trova. "E iniziarono a essere allegri.”

Alcuni hanno chiamato questo, “Il padre in esecuzione,"Invece di, “Il figlio prodigo,"Perché sono le azioni del Padre in queste Scritture che danno uno sguardo al cuore di Dio, il nostro Padre celeste, verso di noi, I suoi figli. Posso immaginare il padre che guarda all'orizzonte ogni giorno per un assaggio di suo figlio che torna a casa. E ogni giorno, perdere la speranza che sarebbe tornato. Poi un giorno, Individua suo figlio ed è pieno di compassione per lui. Si aggira i suoi lombi (prende la sua veste da dietro tra le gambe e se la infila nella cintura) e corre da suo figlio. Durante i tempi biblici, Un uomo della sua statura nella comunità non farebbe una cosa del genere in pubblico, Ma non gli importava quello che pensavano gli altri. Ho letto che il figlio avrebbe potuto essere bandito dalla città o umiliato pubblicamente, Perché ha disonorato suo padre e la loro città con le sue azioni peccaminose. Questo era un altro possibile motivo per cui il padre corse da suo figlio; Voleva proteggerlo dall'umiliazione e dal giudizio degli altri.

Mettiamoci nei panni del figlio prodigo. Non siamo scappati dalle case che Dio ci aveva dato in parte a causa della disfunzione, e/o volevamo esplorare il mondo e vivere le nostre vite? Nel frattempo, Il nostro Padre celeste sta guardando e sta cercando di tornare a casa da lui. Come deve aver spezzato il suo cuore vedere il distruttivo, scelte empie che abbiamo fatto. Eppure, Ci ama con un amore eterno; Lui desidera che torniamo a casa da lui (Geremia 31:3a.C). Gli angeli in cielo si rallegrano di un peccatore che si pente (Luca 15:10).

Dio ha mandato suo figlio a morire per noi in modo da poter essere liberati dal giudizio che meritavamo a causa di tutti i nostri peccati. Adoro la correlazione tra il padre del figlio prodigo e il nostro Padre celeste. Gesù è diventato peccato per noi (II Corinzi 5:21un) ed era nudo, fare finta, e crocifisso, ed è morto per noi. Era umiliato e torturato per me e per te. Quando penso a quello che Gesù ha fatto sulla croce per me, Sono sopraffatto dalla gratitudine perché so che non me lo merita, ma ricevo umilmente questo prezioso dono di salvezza che costa a Dio la cosa più preziosa che aveva, Suo figlio.

Infine, Anche noi eravamo morti nelle nostre trasgressioni e peccati contro Dio, (Efesini 2:1B) Ma quando abbiamo confessato i nostri peccati, Come il figlio prodigo, Siamo stati accolti nella famiglia di Dio. C'è stata una celebrazione in paradiso il giorno in cui hai ricevuto Cristo come tuo Salvatore (Luca 15:10). Dio ti ha vestito in una bellissima veste bianca (Rivelazione 7:9), Metti un anello sul dito, e ti ha adottato nella sua santa famiglia (romani 8:15a.C). Un giorno, Saremo tutti insieme per la grande festa in paradiso, la cena del matrimonio dell'agnello (Rivelazione 19:9). Alleluia! Grazie, Gesù!

Grazie, Padre, per il dono dell'adozione nella tua famiglia. Non sono più un orfano, uno sconosciuto, o un emarginato; Io sono tuo per sempre.

Nota: A voi preziosi che non avevano buoni padri terreni, È difficile pensare a Dio come a un buon Padre celeste. Per favore sappi che il cuore di Dio si è rotto quando ha visto l'abuso e trascura che hai sofferto per mano dei tuoi padri terreni. Dio non è come i tuoi padri terreni; È gentile, gentile, puro, santo, e fedele. Ti ama con un amore eterno. Niente può separarti dall'amore di Dio attraverso Cristo Gesù, nostro Signore (romani 8:35).

Domande:

Com'era la tua relazione con tuo padre terreno?

Vedi Dio come un padre buono e gentile? Se non, Si prega di spiegare.

Per favore, contatta se hai bisogno di parlare o hai bisogno di preghiera.

Sei amato,

Toni

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Aborto: La nostra unica opzione

Aborto: La nostra unica opzione

Aborto: La nostra unica opzione

By Toni Weisz/Spiritual Warfare

Scripture References: Genesi 3:15 and Genesis 1:27

Genesi 3:15“And I will put enmity between you and the woman, and between your seed and her Seed; He shall bruise your head, and you shall bruise His heel.”

Genesi 1:27“So God created man in His own image; in the image of God He created him; male and female He created them.”

It takes courage to be healed from a past abortion. Going back to look at the sins that contributed to our abortion decision is hard.

Did I seek God? NO.

Did I ask a Christian friend? NO, I didn’t have any.

Did I ask my parents for help? I didn’t. How about you?

From the time we are little girls, the enemy’s plan is to isolate us. That way, he has us exactly where he wants us when we are faced with life-altering decisions: alone.

In the book of Genesis, we learn that Satan’s purpose was to destroy the seed of the woman who would give birth to the Messiah. God’s response to Satan in the garden describes the struggle that would ensue because of this purpose: “I will put enmity (hostility) between you and the woman, and between your seed and her Seed; He shall bruise your head, and you shall bruise His heel.” (Genesi 3:15).

Since that very moment, every child in the womb has become a target for Satan to destroy. Satan hates humans because we are created in the image of God (ref. Genesi 1:27). He takes this hatred one step further by convincing women that abortion is a good thing. How sinister is that? It is evil and unnatural for a woman, a mother, to kill her baby. Those of us who’ve had an abortion have done just that.

How did we let this happen?

Here are a few questions we can ask ourselves to uncover the reason(S) behind our abortions. I’ve included my own answers.

Domande:

  1. What were the circumstances that lead to your abortion(S)?

Toni: I was in college living an ungodly life filled with drugs, alcool, and sex. I was running away from my past pain. I just wanted to escape from my life, and this sinful lifestyle gave me some relief for a little while. Così, when I found myself pregnant, I was fearful my child would be severely deformed from all the drugs and alcohol. I also feared my parent’s reaction.

  1. When you found out you were pregnant, who did you tell?

Toni: I told one of my housemates who also had an abortion; she said it was no big deal. She had just had one recently. I told one of my boyfriend’s sisters; she even told me where to make an appointment.

  1. Did you tell your parents? If yes, what was their reaction?

Toni: NO, I was too fearful of their reaction, and I didn’t want to hurt them. I wish I would have had the courage to tell them. I made a mistake and needed help, but I did not have the courage to do that.

  1. Did you talk with the father of the baby? Did he have a say?

Toni: He just assumed I would have an abortion. He didn’t know what his role was. We really didn’t talk about it. The father of that baby is my husband, and we will be celebrating our 40th anniversary this year.

  1. Does your abortion decision still bring you deep pain and regret?

Toni: I still mourn the loss of my son, Joseph. But by the grace of God, He has healed me from my past abortion. And I look forward to the day when I will see my son face-to-face. Grazie, Dio, for this gift.

The members of My Ashes to Beauty are here to walk alongside you and to help you. This ministry offers you hope and healing through a relationship with Jesus, la Parola di Dio, lo spirito Santo, and a safe community to share your heart and your tears from your past abortion.

God wants His daughters healed and whole to live the abundant life He came to give them. Please reach out if you need additional help and healing. Scrivimi a: arwsg4u2@gmail.com.

Sei amato,

Toni

 

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