Smetti di sforzarti

Smetti di sforzarti

Smetti di sforzarti

January 2024
By Toni Weisz/Spiritual Disciplines

Scripture Verses:
Salmo 27:14, Isaia 40:31a and Psalm 103:13-14

Salmo 27:14
Aspetta il Signore: be of good courage, and He shall strengthen thine heart; wait, dico, sul Signore.

Isaia 40:31un
But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength.

Salmo 103:13-14
As a father pities his children, so the Lord pities those who fear Him. For He knows our frame; He remembers we are dust.

In my journaling this week, I was struggling with feelings of rejection, which caused me to be emotionally drained and physically weak. After a few days, I finally sat down with the Lord and poured out my heart to Him. I have a big family reunion coming up, and that always, for some reason, still causes me to become anxious. Those old wounds can be easily reopened, and those old tapes start playing over and over again in my mind.

I have witnessed to all of them over the years, even my nieces and nephews. Not a one has responded to the gospel. I know that is not my responsibility; it’s Gods. I know the enemy is trying to gain entrance into my thought life because he wants me to be anxious and ineffective for God. NO, that’s not happening. I am aware of his plot, and I am equipping myself with the armor of God and His word to protect my mind and my heart from his lies.

Also, I am saddened by my son’s illness and the fact that he and his wife will be missing from our family reunion. Sometimes I need to take time to feel what I am feeling instead of just brushing it off or stuffing it. It’s OK to be sad, frustrated and disappointed. Così, I allowed myself to go there too, and afterwards, I felt refreshed.

The enemy is trying to get me to strive for approval in the area of my tennis. Instead of enjoying the gift of being able to play, I am trying too hard to win matches and the approval of others. I am striving too much, and I am physically tired. Instead, I need to rest in the Lord. He is the one who will renew my strength (Isaia 40:31un). He is the one that will give me favor with others. He is the one who opens hearts to hear the word of God and receive it. I am just a vessel that He uses for His purposes. I need to go back to the basics, enjoy the gift of tennis, and stop trying so hard to be perfect.

I also have four events this month where I will be sharing my testimony and our ministry information, and the enemy is not happy about that. Each week, we get one or two new women who come to our ministry. I need to stay close to the Lord and keep my eyes on Him. He is the one that has opened these doors, and I need to trust Him. He is the one who will give me favor and the words to say. I trust Him completely.

God wants us to pour out our hearts to Him. He sees all of us, and He knows our struggles, our heartbreaks, and our frailty. He remembers that we are dust. He is the one who created us in the first place. In Psalm 103:13-14, we read, “As a father pities his children, so the Lord pities those who fear Him. For He knows our frame; He remembers we are dust.”

I realized that I need to surrender my will and my heart to God and trust Him with all the outcomes. I cannot control those things, but I can control how I respond to things. I can have victory in all these areas if I let God use me the way He wants to and stop trying so hard.

Domande da prendere a cuore:

  1. What area are you still striving in?
  2. Why are you trying so hard?
  3. Have you been able to surrender all to God? If not, why?
  4. Come possiamo pregare per te?

I pray this topic has been helpful for you. If you need to talk you can email me at: toni@myashestobeauty.com.

Sei amato,
Toni

 

 

 

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Un controllo nel mio spirito

Un controllo nel mio spirito

Un controllo nel mio spirito
by Toni Weisz/Abuse Recovery

Scripture reference: Ephesians 4:29-32
Let no corrupt communication proceed out of your mouth, but that which is good to the use of edifying, that it may minister grace to the hearers. And grieve not the Holy Spirit of God, whereby ye are sealed unto the day of redemption. Let all bitterness, and wrath, and anger, and clamour, and evil speaking, be put away from you with all malice: and be ye kind one to another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as God for Christ’s sake hath forgiven you.

I had an opportunity this week to see a leader from my past. She was the unbortion recovery leader at our local pregnancy center at the time I was also volunteering. We did many post-unbortion Bible studies together for several years. I was very surprised to see her because we were at an event that had nothing to do with ministry. We sat next to each other. We shared about our families, and then we also discussed ministry. We both come from totally different approaches to ministry.

Over the years, I have learned a woman doesn’t need to be slammed about her sin of abortion, that it’S something that we talk about, and the Holy Spirit is the one who convicts her of it.

At My Ashes to Beauty, we are very clear that abortion terminates a life. But women come to our ministry broken, and they need someone to lift them up, to love them, to share the truth about abortion, and to share the love of Jesus with them.

As we talked about ministry, I noticed I was raising my voice; we are both very passionate and strong women. I was not feeling good about what was happening. I felt like we were in some kind of strange competition. I felt very uncomfortable. I felt like she was defending herself and also insinuating some things about me that were not true.

At one point, I just folded my hands and stopped engaging with her just to take a break because our conversation was getting kind of bizarre. In the past, She had hurt me in many ways by her style of leadership, and I suffered not only public humiliation in front of other leaders, but she also told me it was my sin that was causing problems in my marriage.

I have worked very hard over the years to forgive her. Signore, I forgive her, and I pray You bless her and her family, in Jesus name. God has taught me many things by looking at other leaders and learning from them.

She sent me a text the next day and was wanting to get together possibly. Onestamente, there are some people that I have to keep at arm’s length, and she is one of them.

Have you ever felt like you had to keep yourself protected from certain individuals? For some reason, have you felt they are unsafe emotionally? Was there a check in your spirit, like a caution?

When I think about it now, I was a co-dependent people-pleaser. I had a fear of authority figures, E I considered her an authority figure. I gave her too much power over me, and that was my fault. But I was so wounded, and I had just started in the post-abortion ministry, so a lot of things were coming up from my past. I wasn’t equipped yet to handle all of that.

Perhaps she reminds me of other family members. I am very guarded around individuals like this who have hurt me in the past. I am also aware the evil one is prowling because I sent my ministry cards to some family members who are pro-choice. I know I cannot change their hearts; I am praying God does, but I want them to hear the truth from the other side that abortion not only takes a life but also harms women deeply. Please pray for God to open their hearts to hear the truth about abortion.

Domande da prendere a cuore:

  1. Are there certain family members or friends you have to guard yourself from?
  2. How do you navigate those relationships? What do you do to protect yourself?
  3. How can we pray and encourage you?

I pray this topic was helpful for you. Per favore contattaci se hai bisogno di parlare, toni@myashestobeauty.com.

Sei amato,
Toni

 

 

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Il suo occhio è sul passero

Il suo occhio è sul passero

Il suo occhio è sul passero (Parte 1)
di Toni Weisz/Discipline spirituali

 

Riferimenti scritturali: Matteo 10:29-31, Isaia 61:1-3 E 1 John 4:7-8

 

Matteo 10:29-31
Non si vendono due passeri per una moneta di rame? E nessuno di loro cade a terra senza la volontà del Padre tuo. Ma gli stessi capelli sulla tua testa sono tutti contati, Non temere quindi; tu vali più di tanti passeri.

Isaia 61:1
Lo Spirito del Signore Dio è su di me, perché il Signore mi ha consacrato con l'unzione per portare il lieto annuncio ai poveri; mi ha mandato a fasciare quelli che hanno il cuore spezzato, proclamare la libertà ai prigionieri, e l'apertura del carcere a coloro che sono legati;

1 John 4:7-8
Amato, amiamoci gli uni gli altri, perché l'amore viene da Dio; e chiunque ama è nato da Dio e conosce Dio. Chi non ama non conosce Dio, perché Dio è amore.



Lunedì pomeriggio, Giugno 5, 2023, mentre porto a spasso il mio cane, Mi sono imbattuto in un uccellino. La povera creatura non aveva ancora nemmeno le piume, e i suoi occhi erano chiusi. Ho immediatamente portato dentro il cane e ho chiamato mia figlia per sapere cosa avrei dovuto fare. Quando le ho mandato una foto dell'uccello, ha detto, "Mamma, è un corvo. Sia io che lei odiamo i corvi a causa del modo in cui viaggiano in un gruppo chiamato "omicidio" per predare tutti gli uccellini indifesi.

Ho chiamato molte agenzie per gli animali e una mi ha suggerito di creare un nido sull'albero dove si trovava il nido originale e che i genitori lo nutriranno. Così, Mi sono affrettato cercando di trovare il mio nido improvvisato e di metterlo sull'albero. Poi con mia sorpresa, una coppia di tordi venne più volte e diede da mangiare all'uccellino. Ho ringraziato Dio per averli mandati.

Odio vedere i deboli, vulnerabile, abbandonati, sfruttati e maltrattati o uccisi. Odio la caduta in cui tutta la natura e l'umanità caddero nel peccato. Aspetto quel tempo in cui non ci sarà più peccato, morte, Dolore, dolore o lacrime. Ho pensato tra me e me, “Questa piccola cosa sarà fortunata se riuscirà a superare la notte,” ma lo fece con mio grande stupore.

Martedì mattina, Ho guardato fuori dalla finestra e ho visto un picchio rosso vicino al nido, e mi sono precipitato fuori dalla porta per scacciarlo. Ho pensato tra me e me, "Questo è pazzesco, non puoi farlo tutto il giorno; ti farai impazzire dal panico ogni volta che arriva un altro predatore. Toni, devi dare questo a Dio e arrenderti”.

Passò un po' di tempo e notai che il nido era caduto dall'albero, così ho cercato e ho trovato l'uccellino e l'ho rimesso sull'albero. I tordi volavano sopra di me per tenermi lontano da questo uccello. Ho provato a rassicurarli, "Va bene."

Ho pianto e sono entrata in casa e ho scritto questi pensieri:
"Signore, Non posso aiutare tutto e tutti. Non posso salvare nessuno. Posso proteggere e aiutare coloro che mi porti, come meglio posso, ma alla fine, Ho bisogno di arrendermi tutto a Te, se si tratta di un uccello abbandonato, i problemi di salute di mio figlio, una donna che porti al ministero o alla salvezza di un membro della famiglia. È tutto nelle tue mani, Signore; Cedo il controllo a Te.

Guardare i tordi prendersi cura di un corvo, il loro nemico, Ho sentito le parole di Gesù, “Ama i tuoi nemici, benedici coloro che ti maledicono, fate del bene a quelli che vi odiano”. (Matteo 5:44)

Questi uccelli che lavorano insieme per proteggere e nutrire questo piccolo mi hanno ricordato il corpo di Cristo che lavora insieme per aiutare i vulnerabili, i deboli, e i feriti in questo mondo. In questo ministero, vogliamo che gli altri vedano il cuore del Padre verso di loro. Vogliamo che sperimentino il Suo grande amore e la Sua compassione e che si prendano cura di loro come farebbe Lui.

Per tutto il tempo ho tenuto questo uccellino tra le mani, Stavo pensando al vecchio inno, Il suo occhio è sul passero. I brani biblici da cui è tratto questo inno si trovano in Matteo 10:29-31; “Non si vendono due passeri per una moneta di rame? E nessuno di loro cade a terra senza la volontà del Padre tuo. Ma gli stessi capelli sulla tua testa sono tutti contati, Non temere quindi; tu vali più di tanti passeri.

Voglio solo che tu lo sappia, caro, che Dio ti vede e ti conosce così intimamente perché ti ha creato. E Lui sa quanti capelli hai sulla testa.

Vieni a Lui e porta con te i tuoi sogni infranti, il tuo cuore spezzato, la tua vita spezzata, e Lui può trarne qualcosa di bello se sei disposto a fidarti di Lui.

Domande da prendere a cuore:

  1. Hai saputo amare i tuoi nemici?
  2. Hai sperimentato un momento in cui il corpo di Cristo ha lavorato insieme per ministrare agli altri? Puoi fare un esempio?? Come ti sei sentito??
  3. Come possiamo pregare per te?

https://youtu.be/ku2RUdcku_w
Il suo occhio è sul passero, Selah

Prego che tu conosca l'amore di Dio nel tuo essere più profondo perché quando lo fai, cambierà radicalmente la tua vita per sempre. Per favore contattaci se hai bisogno di parlare. Scrivimi a: toni@myashestobeauty.com.

Sei amato,
Toni

 

Il suo occhio è sul passero (Parte 2)
di Toni Weisz/Discipline spirituali

 

Dovevo fare progetti per far addormentare il mio caro e fedele amico. Avevamo Mozzie per 12 anni. Era il mio compagno costante e il mio protettore; amava davvero quel ruolo, lol. Era quasi cieco e sordo, e non poteva camminare molto bene. Sapevo nel mio cuore che tenerlo in vita sarebbe stato egoista da parte mia. Aveva adempiuto al suo scopo su questa terra. Era giunto il momento per me di lasciarlo andare. Mi sono concesso qualche settimana per piangere e lasciarmi andare.

A settembre 1, 2023, L'ho portato dal veterinario, e mentre sei nella sala d'attesa, il Signore ha portato la canzone, Il suo occhio è sul passero, a mio avviso. Con le lacrime agli occhi e la voce rotta, Ho cantato la canzone a Mozzie mentre lo tenevo tra le braccia e lo cullavo. È stato un momento dolce e ringrazio Dio per questo. Non avevo intenzione di stare con lui fino alla fine, ma immagino che Dio volesse che fossi lì con lui. Sono rimasta con lui finché i suoi occhi non si sono chiusi e il suo cuoricino ha smesso di battere. L'ho ringraziato per essere un amico così fedele. Ho ringraziato Dio per il dono di Mozzie.

La mattina dopo quando mi sono alzato, Mi sono seduto al computer per iniziare le mie devozioni mattutine. Il Signore ha sussurrato al mio cuore, “Sono orgoglioso di te per il modo in cui hai mostrato gentilezza e per come ti sei preso cura di lui così bene. Benedice il mio cuore quando ami le mie creature. Ho sorriso e il mio cuore si è riempito del Suo amore. Voglio compiacerti, Signore, in ogni ambito della mia vita.

Per favore contattaci se hai bisogno di parlare. Scrivimi a: toni@myashestobeauty.com.

Sei amato,
Toni

 

 

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Chi sono i tuoi abitanti del balcone?

Chi sono i tuoi abitanti del balcone?

Chi sono i tuoi abitanti del balcone?

By Toni Weisz/Recovery Tools

Riferimenti scritturali: Ebrei 10:24 e Matteo 11:28–30

Balcony peeps (people) are individuals who cheer you on in your life. They are literally hanging over the railing of a balcony, cheering you on in your walk with Jesus and in the hard things you have experienced in your life. They are your cheerleaders.

Who do you see as your balcony peeps? Can you see their faces? Can you hear their words of encouragement?

Too many people, even in ministry, are not kind, gentle, loving, or supportive. I have experienced a lot of pride lately in leadership roles, and it makes me very sad because I know that is not pleasing to our God.

In the book, Balcony People, the author talks about the toxic people in our lives and how much importance we put on their words instead of focusing on the positive people God has put in our lives that help stir us up to love and good works. (Ref. Ebrei 10:24)

 

Here is a poem by an anonymous source taken from the book, Balcony People by Joyce Landorf Heatherley:

I was hungry and you formed a humanities club to discuss my hunger.
THANK YOU.

I was imprisoned and you crept off quietly to your chapel to pray for my release.
NICE.

I was naked, and in your mind, you debated the morality of my appearance.
WHAT GOOD DID THAT DO?

I was sick and you knelt and thanked God for your health.
BUT I NEEDED YOU.

I was homeless and you preached to me of the shelter of the love of God.
I WISH YOU’D TAKEN ME HOME.

I was lonely and you left me alone to pray for me.
WHY DIDN’T YOU STAY?

You seem so holy, so close to God; but I’m still very hungry, solitario, Freddo, and still in pain.
DOES IT MATTER?

 

How do we meet these women’s needs? They need a safe place to come to lay their burdens down. That’s why we do the Sunday Conference calls. We want to be the hands and feet of Jesus to these dear precious women. We provide a community of women who have experienced the same trauma because we have walked the same walk. We know through experience what they are feeling.

They are yearning to feel deeply connected in a safe community. They have been used and abused and feel isolated in their pain, and they are vulnerable to the attacks of the evil one. They desire to be seen by others. They need love, support, and encouragement that one day, if they seek God with their whole heart, they will be healed. But it’s hard work, and that is what we are here for, to cheer them on and to help them heal from their past trauma. It is God that leads them to us, and it’s through the power of Jesus, la Parola di Dio, and the work of the Holy Spirit that they are healed. We are just vessels God uses to accomplish this miraculous work.

We meet their spiritual needs as well as physical needs. We do not judge them for the things that have happened to them in their past because that does not define them. We love them, and we know they are weary with their pain and trauma from their past.

We are reminded of the words of Jesus in Matthew 11:28–30: “Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn of Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.”

I thank God for each of you on this call today. I know most of your stories, and I am in awe of God and the work He has been doing in your lives. I get to watch God miraculously heal your broken hearts, bodies, minds, and spirits. I am truly honored and humbled by the privilege to serve in this ministry and for each and every one of you.

Domande da prendere a cuore:

  1. Who are your balcony peeps, your cheerleaders?
  2. Do you see them hanging over the balcony cheering you on? What are they saying to you?
  3. Who are you encouraging? For those that are just beginning your healing journey, take care of yourself and your family first, then you can reach out to others.
  4. How can we pray for you on your healing journey?

Please reach out if you need to talk this week. Send me a text at: 561-327-7274 oppure inviami un'e-mail a: toni@myashestobeauty.com.

Sei amato,
Toni

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Signore, Voglio essere guarito

Signore, Voglio essere guarito

Signore, I Want to Be Healed

di Toni Weisz/Discipline spirituali

Riferimenti scritturali: John 10:10b, Ephesians 3:20, Isaia 41:10, Luca 19:10 e Salmo 40:13

 

If we truly want to be healed from our past trauma, we must be willing to surrender all to God. We must step out and trust Him completely in this process even when it gets scary and it’s unpredictable and out of our control.

For those who have experienced abuse and abortion in our past, it is hard to let go of control because it was our protection, so we thought.

We have to come to the point where we don’t want to just survive, we want to live the abundant life Jesus came to give us (Leggi John 10:10b). We no longer want to just settle; we want to experience true love and acceptance, perhaps for the first time in our lives.

If you are reading this blog, you most likely have decided you want to be healed, too. You are courageous and tired of the life you were living and want more. You want to stop the cycle of dysfunction in your life and for future generations. This is a long and very hard process, but it is worth it.

If you are willing, God is able to do exceedingly abundantly more than what you can ask or think (Leggi Ephesians 3:20). That’s the God we serve. He is not limited by time and space. He is eternal.

I remember back in 2006, when God called me to the postabortion ministry, starting a journal called, “Why are the relationships closest to me toxic?” God gave me awareness that there was something going on in my relationships with those closest to me. But what was it? Ero il comune denominatore, so what was I doing to enable these toxic relationships?

I discovered over a ten-year period of relentlessly going to God as a broken surrendered woman, “Lord I want to be healed from all the pain, rejection, abuse and my abortion. I want to be set free from my peoplepleasing and fear of man. I want to know your love in the innermost parts of my being. I want to feel loved, cherished, and safe, but how do I get there?”

God was so gentle with me because He knew how fragile I was after a lifetime of pain, rejection and trauma. He was leading me with His righteous right hand on a path of healing that was so difficult at times, but it was also beautiful (Leggi Isaia 41:10).

I discovered the heart of God on this journey, and for that, I am most grateful. To know the Father’s heart towards us is life transforming. He is love, gentle, kind, faithful, peaceful, generous, powerful, and eternal. He is close to the abused, neglected, abandoned, and broken. He came to seek and to save the lost (Leggi Luca 19:10). We were all that at one point. But God in His infinite wisdom, His abounding grace and love picked us up out of the pit and placed us on the rock, Jesus Christ our Lord, our strong foundation (Leggi Salmo 40:2).

Hallelujah!!! Grazie, Gesù.

 

Domande da prendere a cuore:

  1. When did God show you the dysfunction in your life?
  2. What was your next step after your awareness?
  3. How is God healing you? Who or what did He use to accomplish this?
  4. Come possiamo pregare per te?

Please reach out if you need prayer or a word of encouragement. You can email me at: toni@myashestobeauty.com.

I watched this movie recently that truly blessed my heart: Kendrick Brothers’ Show me the Father.

Here is the YouTube trailer: https://youtu.be/k4g0CFfGkMk

I pray it blesses your heart also.

 

Sei amato,

Toni