Bread from Heaven-toni-weisz-abortion-recovery-and-abuse-support-group

Bread from Heaven-toni-weisz-abortion-recovery-and-abuse-support-group

I would rather go back to what is familiar even if it is bondage…

Exodus 16: 3-4un
And the children of Israel said to them, “Oh that we had died by the hand of the Lord in the land of Egypt, when we sat by the pots of meat and when we ate bread to the full! For you have brought us out into the wilderness to kill this whole assembly with hunger.” Then the Lord said to Moses, “Behold I will rain bread from heaven for you….”

When the children of Israel’s trials were too hard for them to bear, they wanted to go back to what was familiar: slavery in Egypt.

How many of us can relate to wanting to go back to the dysfunctional relationships or sins of our past because there is comfort in knowing what to expect?

Change is hard because it’s unfamiliar; there is no safety or comfort in it. But God doesn’t want us to stay in our dysfunction. He wants us healed. He wants us to trust Him completely with every area of our lives.

God provided the children of Israel with bread that literally dropped out of the sky, He called it, “Bread from Heaven.” If God did that for them, don’t you think He can help you too? I think the answer is Yes!!!

Permettimi di chiederti, what are you still trying to control and refuse to release into God’s Hands?

God wants you to trust Him to lead, guide, and provide for you. He has a beautiful plan for your life. Onestamente, at this point, what do you have to lose? If anything, you have much to gain.

Step out dear one, and let God take control; you will not regret this decision.

If you need prayer or encouragement, reach out and we will be happy to pray with you.

God Bless you!

Toni and the Team at myashestobeauty.com

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Consapevolezza, Accettazione, e azione

Consapevolezza, Accettazione, e azione

Consapevolezza, Accettazione, e azione:
Il 3 A's to true Healing and Hope.

Non ci può essere cambiamento senza CONSAPEVOLEZZA.

 

CONSAPEVOLEZZA è comprendere e riflettere su una situazione, persona, o sentirsi con apertura e curiosità (unè definito da peopleleaders.com.au).

Per me quel giorno è stato quando ho iniziato un nuovo diario e l'ho chiamato, “Perché i miei rapporti con quelli più vicini a me sono tossici?”

Un nome interessante per un diario, ma avevo consapevolezza che c'era qualcosa di terribilmente sbagliato nel mio rapporto con diverse persone a me più vicine.

Ero il comune denominatore, cosa stavo facendo per incoraggiare o consentire questo comportamento malsano?

Credo che Dio ci dia consapevolezza mentre preghiamo e Gli chiediamo di rimuovere la cecità e di mostrarci i nostri peccati, meccanismi di coping malsani, e i nostri difetti di carattere.

Lo spirito Santo, è indicato come lo Spirito di verità, che ci dà la saggezza e rivela la verità. (John 16:13)

L'ACCETTAZIONE è riconoscere che questo è dove mi trovo adesso nella mia vita.

Ho riconosciuto che i miei rapporti con le persone a me più vicine erano guidati dalla paura; la mia paura del rifiuto e dell'abbandono mi ha fatto diventare un amante del popolo.

Il mio bisogno di amore e accettazione mi aveva immerso profondamente nel bere e nelle droghe nei miei primi anni dell'adolescenza, per trovare una sorta di sollievo dal vuoto che sentivo.

Inoltre non ero in grado di comunicare come mi sentivo, il che mi porterebbe a consentire tutti i tipi di trattamento malsano ed emotivamente violento da parte degli altri.

Non avevo voce né confini e come risultato del mio stile di vita distruttivo, Mi odiavo sempre di più con il passare degli anni.

Il chiodo nella proverbiale bara per me è stato quando mi sono ritrovata con una gravidanza non pianificata a 21. Non c'era modo che potessi dirlo ai miei genitori; sarebbero così feriti e delusi da me.

Avevo paura. Sono stato preso dal panico come tanti di noi; Dovevo occuparmene rapidamente.

Quanti di voi possono riferirsi a questa affermazione? Voglio che tu sappia che sei nel posto giusto. Non c'è giudizio qui, solo amore, l'incoraggiamento e il perdono che Dio offre a tutti mediante la fede in Gesù Cristo.

Azione; Ho capito che dovevo sistemare la mia vita con Dio.

Ho confessato i miei peccati a Dio, Ho riconosciuto e professato che Gesù è il Figlio di Dio, e morì sulla croce per i miei peccati e fu sepolto e il terzo giorno, risorto dai morti, ed è in cielo seduto alla destra del Padre.
(romani 10:9-10,13, 1 st Corinthians 15:3-4, Ebrei 10:12)

Una volta ho avuto questa relazione con Gesù, Mi è stato dato il dono dello Spirito Santo, che è dato a tutti coloro che credono.

La mia relazione con Gesù è iniziata 2/6/1994, e non sono mai stato lo stesso. Ha dato un nuovo scopo, una nuova speranza, e una nuova canzone.

Sono stato reso vivo come uno che è stato strappato dalle profondità della disperazione e dell'oscurità e tormentato dal maligno, che voleva che finissi la mia vita, ma Dio aveva un piano migliore e più bello per la mia vita che non avrei mai immaginato di poter avere.

Ha trasformato le mie ceneri, i miei momenti più bui, e ne ha fatto qualcosa di bello per il mio bene e per la sua gloria. (Isaia 61:3)

È stata la mia relazione con Gesù che mi ha dato il coraggio di ottenere l'aiuto di cui avevo bisogno in modo che questa disfunzione si fermasse con me e non si perpetuasse alla generazione successiva. Prego che Dio dia coraggio anche a te.

 

Nel suo amore e servizio,

—Toni

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La grazia di Dio

La grazia di Dio

God’s Grace can be defined as the unmerited or undeserving favor of God to those who are under condemnation. (Enni, Paul. Moody Handbook of Theology)

Verses Romans 3:19-28, Ephesians 1:7, 2:4-9

Grace was not something I witnessed growing up and I didn’t see it displayed at the church or school I attended as a young child. Instead, I saw students hit with rulers when they disobeyed. I began to believe that my faith was based on my good works: if I was good, I would be loved and accepted. But that was a lie.

The Bible says, “For by grace you are saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, not of works lest anyone should boast.” (Ephesians 2:8-9) According to this and other verses, I could never be, “good enough” to be accepted into God’s family. Instead, by having faith in Jesus Christ and believing his death on the cross was the payment for my sins, I would be welcomed into God’s family. I didn’t have to strive to be perfect; all I needed to do was believe.

Faith in Jesus and being a Christian is not about following rules. It’s about having a relationship with God, acknowledging that Jesus is the Son of God, and that He died on the cross for our sins. He paid our sin debt. We are saved by grace through faith. It is a gift of God, not of works.

  • Grace is a gift from God; it cannot be earned.
  • Grace is overlooking someone else’s faults and loving them where they are.
  • Grace compels me to love others, to extend mercy, and to be kind to all people.
  • Grace humbles me when I think about what Jesus did for me on the cross: a gift I can never repay.

Have you truly received this gift of grace in your heart?

Do you extend grace to others?

 

Nel suo amore e servizio,

—Toni

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Vieni a Gesù

Vieni a Gesù

Let us therefore come boldly onto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time
of need. (Ebrei 4:16)

I was fearful to speak up as a child, continually striving for perfection but never attaining it. I had an over developed sense of responsibility and would take on shame and guilt immediately for any wrongdoing. I also was a very anxious child; I was so worried about disappointing people or doing something wrong. Unfortunately, my parents were unaware of my drinking, drugs, and promiscuous behavior. I did a great job hiding that part of my life. But the truth was I suffered from depression as a teenager, and since my childhood, I felt I had no voice. I allowed others to manipulate and control me with their angry outbursts and their hurtful words. Because I was a child, I did not develop the skill of communicating in a healthy manner. In fact, I stuffed for so long that I could not stuff anymore. My rage and anger came out sideways. I had become a rage-aholic. I hated myself and thought I was not worthy to be loved and that I had no value to anyone; I felt invisible, alone, depressed, e senza speranza. Especially after my abortion at 21, I thought I deserved to be abused because of my sins.

I came to personally know the Lord Jesus as my Savior and friend at the age of 34. I found in Him a Savior to take my sins away and a Friend who would love me just for me. I didn’t have to be perfect to be loved. It took me 15 years to truly take hold of and to believe in the inner most part of my being, that I was loved. How precious those words are to me. I am loved by God; I am not abandoned I am adopted into His family. I am not rejected. Sono accettato.

Dear One, whatever you are fearful to share or even look at today, trust God and come boldly onto His throne of grace. He is lovingly calling you to come and lay down your burdens because you cannot carry them anymore; they are crushing you and are preventing you from truly being set free to enjoy this abundant life He has promised His children.

Permettimi di chiederti:

What are you struggling with today, is it a situation, or an individual?

Do you need to speak to someone and share your heart?

What is the Holy Spirit leading you to do or say?

The Lord wants us to be bold and courageous, what are you fearful of?

“Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn of Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and my burden is light.” (Matteo 11:28-30)

Nel suo amore e servizio,

—Toni

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Freedom from Shame

Freedom from Shame

Freedom from Shame

by Toni Weisz/Spiritual Disciplines

Scritture: Salmo 44:15-16, 2 Corinthians 10:4-5, romani 12:2, Filippesi 4:13 and Zephaniah 3:17

Salmo 44:15-16
My dishonor is continually before me, and the shame of my face has covered me, Because of the voice of him who reproaches and reviles, because of the enemy and the avenger.

I took on shame immediately as a child when I was harshly corrected by a perceived authority figure, like a parent, nun, or teacher. I would feel my cheeks get red, and I was filled with embracement and shame, especially if I was reprimanded in front of others. I suffered with an overdeveloped sense of responsibility; perfectionism and people-pleasing had made me vulnerable to the enemy’s attacks in this area.

Shame tells me from my home of origin, “It’s all your fault. You should have known better.” Another voice said, “I can’t believe you cannot follow simple instructions.” This was the remark by a substitute teacher in front of my entire third-grade class. I wanted to run and hide. I was so embarrassed.

When I got older, the shame would wash over me after a night of partying, when I would slowly start remembering things I did the night before. When I found myself unwed and pregnant, the enemy whispered, “Your parent’s will be so ashamed to call you, their daughter. They will disown and abandon you if they find out all the evil you are doing—the drugs, alcool, sex, and now a baby out of wedlock. You will disgrace the family name. Take care of it now before someone finds out.”

The word picture I use to describe my shame is, I feel the weight of it pushing my head down, and I am covered by a heavy wet dark wool cloak. My head and body are bent over, my eyes are cast down, and my spirit is broken. I have feelings of despair, regret, and weakness. I feel all alone and isolated in this dark place. I feel hopeless and powerless to change my situation. All the while the enemy is tormenting me in this dark place. I don’t see any way out.

For those of you who suffered abuse by the hands of those who were supposed to protect you and then you were shamed into silence, the Lord’s heart broke for you that day and every day after that when the enemy abused you and then made you feel it was all your fault. That is a lie from the pit of hell. No one ever deserves to be mistreated or abused, ever. I pray the Lord heals all of your wounded areas and shows you how precious you are to Him.

I now recognize I don’t have to listen to those old tapes in my head anymore. God has given me a new identity, un nuovo scopo, and a new life. Discovering who I am in Christ changed everything.

God showed me that shame is a choice. I can conquer it, and I can decide not to take it on. I have control over what I allow to enter into my thoughts.

The Bible says in 2 Corinthians 10:4-5, “For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal but mighty in God for pulling down strongholds, casting down arguments and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ.”

Our spiritual battles are won and lost in our minds. That’s why the Bible says to renew our minds daily with the Word of God. (Ref. romani 12:2)

The enemy may try to get me to take on shame, but I have the final say. Christ in me helps me to make better choices. I am not a victim of my circumstances anymore. I am victorious in Christ.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. (Filippesi 4:13)

I am loved by God.
I am adopted. sono not abandoned.
I am accepted. sono not respinto.
I belong to God, and I am His bambino.

Zephaniah 3:17
The Lord your God in your midst, the Mighty One, will save;
He will rejoice over you with gladness,
He will quiet you with His love,
He will rejoice over you with singing.

Questions to take to heart:

  1. Do you still take on shame?
  2. What does your shame feel like?
  3. Has God helped you to see yourself through His loving eyes?
  4. Who does God say you are?
  5. How can we pray for you?

Dear One, you are loved by God. We are here for you to help you conquer the lie shame tells you. Please reach out and email us at: toni@myashestobeauty.com.

You are loved dearly,
Toni

 

 

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