Eu vou ver você de novo

Eu vou ver você de novo

“Eu vou ver você de novo, a Letter to my Baby

Revelação 21:4-5uma
“And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes; não haverá mais morte, nem tristeza, nem chorando. There shall be no pain, for the former things have passed away.” Then He who sat on the throne said, “Behold I make all things new.”

John 14:3
And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again and receive you unto myself; that where I am, there you may be also.

I Corinthians 2:9
But as it is written, “Eye has not seen nor ear heard, nor have entered in the heart of man the things which God has prepared for those who love Him.”

My Letter to My Baby

Dear Joseph,

My precious child, I have loved you all of my adult life, and yet, I have never seen your face or held you in my arms. For that, I am very sorry. You were a gift from God, and I threw you away. I am so sorry for ending your life. God showed me what you look like. I saw a young man in his 30s on an airplane, and he had brown curly hair and blue eyes. I felt my spirit quicken. I whispered to the Lord, “Is that what my son looks like?” I felt the confirmation in my spirit.

I named you Joseph because what the enemy meant for evil, God turned around for my good and for His glory. He exchanged my ashes for something beautiful. Joseph, you inspired a ministry called My Ashes to Beauty to help other moms heal from their past abortions.

I know you are in heaven with Jesus—a place where there is no sadness, dor, or sorrow. I can’t wait for the day that I can see you face to face in heaven where we will be together forever. I have pictured that scene over and over in my mind. I see you greeting me in heaven. I know you and you know me. We hug. With tears of joy streaming down my cheeks, you kiss me and I say, “I have waited for this moment for so long. Now we will never be parted again. I love you, Joseph.” You respond, “I love you, Mom.” Then, I will look to Jesus and thank Him for this precious gift of being reunited with my child in heaven and for the gift of salvation He gave me.

I will see you soon.

Love always,
Mom

As I was praying about the topic for today, this song came on my station, Scars in Heaven, by Casting Crowns. Here are some of the lyrics (to which I made some minor modifications):

Now what I would give for one more day with you Joseph (your child or children’s names).
Cause there’s a wound here in my heart where something’s missing. And they tell me that it’s gonna heal with time. But I know you’re in a better place where you are healed and whole and I will be too.
The only scars in heaven, they won’t belong to me and you.
There’ll be no such thing as broken, and all the old will be made new. And that thought makes me smile now, even as tears fall down. Is that the only scars in heaven are on the hands that hold you now.

Questions to Take to Heart:
What are your thoughts when you think about your baby (or babies)? What would you like to say to your baby (or babies)?

You can read more letters on our website: https://myashestobeauty.com/a-letter-to-my-baby/

I pray this blesses your heart.

Você é amado,

Toni

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Nossa percepção de Deus e por que é importante

Nossa percepção de Deus e por que é importante

Colossians 3:2
Set your mind on things above, not on things on the earth.

Romanos 12:1-2
Do not be conformed to this world but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God.

I can’t remember where I got this quote from but it makes a lot of sense. “Science tells us that repetitive thoughts over time become physical ruts in the brain that effect reasoning, choices, and eventually our beliefs.”

What was your perception of God as a child?

Was He kind, loving, and approachable or cold, distant, and angry?
My perception of God as a child was that He was unapproachable angry and would punish me for the slightest offense, He was not a God of love but of wrath. I grew up in a church that I saw punishment for the slightest offense with rulers and scolding. The people there were very harsh and critical. And that God was all about following rules. Eu não vi o amor de Deus lá.
You can read my Blog under stinking thinking: https://myashestobeauty.com/stinking-thinking-my-distorted-view-of-god/

How did that affect you growing up?
Because of my distorted view of God, when I found myself in bad situations, I decided to take matters into my own hands instead of asking God what I should do. I didn’t think He cared about me. I was in such darkness I could not see His light at all. Because of the unhealthy relationships I had with others closest to me which were quite manipulative and controlling, I didn’t think I was worth very much to God or others. então, what does it matter what I do to my body, my baby, ou outros? But God was showing up ever now and then when I felt like He was there and He was interested in my life. But I would not come to know Him as my Lord and Savior until I was 34 anos.

Efésios 3:16-19
That he would grant you, according to the riches of his glory, to be strengthened with might by His Spirit in the inner man; that Christ may dwell in your hearts by faith, que você, estar enraizado e fundamentado no amor, may be able to comprehend with all saints what is the width and length and depth and height – to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge; para que você seja cheio de toda a plenitude de Deus.

How do you see God now?
I now have finally received the beautiful redeeming work of Christ in my life once I was able to receive His love into the inner most part of my being, that truth changed me forever. Even after I was saved, I allowed people to abuse me and use me because I had no boundaries, and because I didn’t love myself, others didn’t treat me with love and respect either. But once His love permeated my heart, I had courage to put up boundaries and I started taking care of myself and loving myself. It was the most freeing and beautiful thing I have experienced, to know the love of God for myself. To feel and know in my heart, that no matter what I have done in the past He loves me.

How does He see you?
I am grateful for the truth from God’s word that every person is created in His image and is given intrinsic value and is created with a purpose for His kingdom. I am no longer bound to Satan and sin instead I am adopted into the family of God; I am a daughter of the King of Glory. He loved me so much He died for me on the cross. His love is so deep, and wide, and high that I cannot comprehend it, but I believe in my heart I am cherished and loved by God. And I will be with Him forever in heaven for all eternity. In July of 2017 we were having my extended family in town, my sister and brother and their families. Como resultado, I started feeling anxious and started feeling rejected by all of them, because you see they do not know the Lord yet, so I am not apart of their family anymore. Rejection was a huge wound for me and I can go there very quickly if I am not grounded in the Word. To Combat my rejection wound God had me write out specific Biblical truths about, “Who I am in Christ,” it goes like this:

Quem eu sou em Cristo

Eu sou digno
Eu sou amado
Eu pertenço
Eu sou aceito
Eu sou adotado
Estou confiante e competente
Eu sou um filho de Deus
Eu tenho o Espírito Santo dentro de mim
Eu sou vitorioso em Cristo
Eu tenho um lar no céu
Nothing can separate me from the love of God in Christ Jesus my Lord
Não vou temer o mal

I am so proud of you for having the courage to step out and trust God to heal you.

You are safe her beloved sister.

Você é amado,
Toni

Salmo 147:3
He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds. (NVI)

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Você permitirá que Jesus te cure?

Você permitirá que Jesus te cure?

UMAônibus Rrecuperação Ssuporte Ggrupo (ARSG)

Você permitirá que Jesus te cure?

He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds. Salmo 147:3 NVI

Only Jesus knows what it feels like to be verbally and physically abused, mocked and spit on, and publicly humiliated as He hung on the cross naked and beaten and rejected by His closest friends. I believe only Jesus can heal us physically, spiritually, mentally, and emotionally from all the forms of abuse and trauma we have experienced in our lives. Em Isaías 53:5, the Bible says, “But He was wounded for our transgressions, He was bruised for our iniquities; the chastisement for our peace was upon Him, e by His stripes we are healed.

Thank you for joining our first support group meeting on abuse. We will be covering all kinds of abuse from emotional, físico, sexual, and spiritual. We want to give each of you an opportunity to share your stories and your hearts in a safe and loving environment so that the healing journey you started will continue. One thing I have learned through the abortion recovery ministry is that we need a community of women who have experienced the same things we have, in order for us to open up and be vulnerable. God is providing you with a group of sisters who love Jesus and each other, and who are courageous and committed to this healing journey. They are willing to do the work necessary to reach the next level in their healing as they grow closer to God in the process. They no longer want to settle for barely existing. Não, they want more. They want the abundant life that Jesus died to give them.

In my home of origin, I never developed a voice because of the chaos and unpredictable home environment I grew up in. From an early age, I believed I had the power to make someone happy or angry by my behavior. That was a lie from the pit of hell, but I would not discover that truth until I got into ACA recovery work in 2010-2015. I have no such control, but this lie lead me down a path of people-pleasing that opened me up to all kinds of harsh treatment and abuse by others who would use and manipulate me. I enabled this behavior because of my need for love and acceptance. I did not understand codependency, emotional and verbal abuse, and how it was having an effect on me and the choices I would make in my life. I thought this was normal; it was my normal but, God knows it wasn’t His plan for the family.

I started rebelling at the age of 12, drinking Scotch Whiskey from my parent’s liquor cabinet, getting high at 13 and having sex at 16 and then, meu aborto em 21. I struggled with depression as a teenager, and when I got drunk, I acted out and kicked out a window in my college dorm. I punched walls and was so filled with rage and hatred towards myself. After my abortion, these unhealthy coping mechanisms just increased in intensity. My abortion was the nail in my coffin. That act plunged me headlong into the dark pit of despair and suicidal thoughts. I just wanted to end this torment of a life; I did not see a way out.

Then one glorious day, I met Jesus and He forgave all my sins, and He began healing my broken body, soul and mind. It’s been twenty-seven years, and He is still healing and loving me. And it has been a beautiful journey.

What was your home of origin like?

How did that affect your decision making?

Did you make healthy decisions or ones based out of fear?

Have you received help in this area to stop this unhealthy cycle in your life?

The UMAônibus Rrecuperação Ssuporte Ggrupo (ARSG) meets on the 2nd and 4th Sundays of every month, no 4:15 PM EST. More information regarding the Sunday calls is found on this page, Trauma de abuso sexual.

Entre em contato, email us at arwsg4u2@gmail.com, we can help you heal from your past trauma with our loving and caring support group, the Word of God, the Holy Spirit, prayer, and accountability.

Você é amado,
Toni

 

 

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As armadilhas do diabo (Series): véspera

As armadilhas do diabo (Series): véspera

As armadilhas do diabo: EVE
Uma série tirada do Dr.. Carlos Stanley

“véspera”

Genesis 2:21
And the senhor God caused a deep sleep to fall on Adam, and he slept; and He took one of his ribs, and closed up the flesh in its place.

Genesis 3:1–9
“Now the serpent was more cunning than any beast of the field which the Lord God had made. And he said to the woman, “Has God indeed said, ‘You shall not eat of every tree of the garden’?”

And the woman said to the serpent, “We may eat the fruit of the trees of the garden; but of the fruit of the tree which is in the midst of the garden, God has said, ‘You shall not eat it, nor shall you touch it, lest you die.’”

Then the serpent said to the woman, “You will not surely die. For God knows that in the day you eat of it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing good and evil.”

So when the woman saw that the tree was good for food, that it was pleasant to the eyes, and a tree desirable to make one wise, she took of its fruit and ate. She also gave to her husband with her, and he ate. Then the eyes of both of them were opened, and they knew that they were naked; and they sewed fig leaves together and made themselves coverings.

And they heard the sound of the Lord God walking in the garden in the cool of the day, and Adam and his wife hid themselves from the presence of the Lord God among the trees of the garden.

Then the Lord God called to Adam and said to him, “Where are you?”

Have you ever wanted something you knew you should not have or participated in something you knew you shouldn’t? Have you ever been tempted to sin?

The enemy tries to take our attention off of God and focus on the one thing we don’t have. For Eve, it is the fruit she cannot eat from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil. The serpent has been observing Eve for a while. He cannot read her mind, but he watches for her reactions and her behavior patterns. He sees her approaching the tree and looking at the beautiful fruit. She is thinking, I wonder why God is keeping this from me. God is holding back something good from me. It’s because He doesn’t really love and care about me. If He did, He would let me have this fruit.

For those of us who have had children or have spent any time with children, we understand that children do not know what is best for them. They would eat junk food all day and watch TV all night. As adults, we know that is not a healthy way to live. We love them. então, we teach them and put up boundaries so they learn to make healthy choices. We do this because we care about their well-being and their future. God loves us too and wanted to protect Adam, Eve and the whole world from the destructive effects of sin. That’s why He told them not to eat of the fruit.

We see in Scripture that Eve has a conversation with Satan the serpent. That was her first mistake. Do not have a dialogue with the enemy. Do not even entertain his thoughts because he is more cunning then you know. We cannot reason or trust the enemy to lead us to do anything that would benefit us in any way. His ways always lead to death and destruction. That’s why knowing the Word of God is so important. When the enemy lies to you, you will know the truth and you will not fall into temptation or sin.

The second thing we see is Satan causing Eve to doubt God’s Word. He said, “You shall not eat it: for in the day that you eat of it you shall surely die.” (Genesis 2:17) Satan said, “You shall not surely die, For God knows that in the day you eat of it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing good and evil.”

Becoming like “god” was all Eve needed to hear. Pride will destroy a godly person faster than anything else. I can be my own “god”. I can do whatever I want. I am in charge of my life. I don’t need God. I took that approach when I had my abortion because I thought I knew better. I wanted to be in control of my life. I am my own “god”. Look what that did for me and my dear son. He died as a result of my decision. Consequently, I was plunged headlong into deep despair, depressão, self-loathing and suicidal thoughts. Don’t listen to Satan. He will destroy you. Only God’s way leads to life, paz, joy and true freedom.

então, where was Adam when this was all happening? When Eve took of the fruit and ate it, Adam should have said, “What are you doing? God told us not to eat it.” But the scriptures say that Eve gave it to her husband, and he ate. Then their eyes were opened, and they knew they were naked. Then, they sewed fig leaves together to cover up their nakedness and their sin. I, too, have done that in my life. I rushed to hide my sin never thinking about the consequences. Those decisions have never led to good outcomes for me. The fear of being unmasked is a powerful motivator. My false persona of being the good quiet one was in danger of exposure. Como resultado, I rushed my decision to have an abortion. In my mind, there were no other alternatives. Hurry up and take care of it, or do this before someone finds out that the good quiet one in the family is a phony. My whole life had become a lie.

God calls out to Adam, “Where are you?” God knew where Adam and Eve were. He wanted to give them a chance to come out of hiding and confess their sin. Contudo, they didn’t. We hide from God too. We isolate ourselves as Christians. We stop going to church or stop being accountable to people when we sin because it’s easier. Then we wake up one morning and say, “How did I get here?” It happens very quickly, my friends. It’s important to confess sin daily to God and to stay in a close Christian community like this group where there is accountability. Each one of us is just one step away from falling into grievous sin. Stay close to God, read His Word, memorize Scripture and stay in community with other believers. If you do this, you will be protected from the lies and the fiery darts of the enemy.

Keep your focus on God alone, and you will be safe.

Please share how you took matters into your own hands like Eve did? What was the outcome?

What have you learned from that experience?

Você é amado,
Toni

 

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Como Deus usou sua dor?

Como Deus usou sua dor?

(2 Corinthians 1:3-5)

Quando eu vim a Cristo com a idade de 34, Eu estava sofrendo de depressão severa, dor física nas articulações e fadiga. Procurei respostas de vários médicos, mas eles não puderam encontrar nada. Meus resultados de teste, Tomografias, Ressonâncias magnéticas e exames de sangue voltaram ao normal. Eu estava perplexo. O que há de errado comigo? Agora eu percebo que meu, lutas emocionais e de saúde eram a maneira de Deus chamar minha atenção. Por causa de como eu me sentia mal, Eu não podia participar de minhas atividades regulares. Foi nessa época de sofrimento que Deus começou a me atrair para si.

Como Deus usou o sofrimento em sua vida para chamar sua atenção? No meu caso, Deus usou minha dor, fraqueza, fadiga e depressão. Deus sabe exatamente como chegar a todos nós para que nos voltemos e nos concentremos Nele. Deus sempre usou meus problemas de saúde física para me lembrar de me apoiar nele. Ele usa o sofrimento para que primeiro, vamos perceber o quanto precisamos Dele em nossa vida e em segundo lugar, que tipo de mudanças precisamos fazer.

Quando eu tive a coragem de confiar em Deus e finalmente quis mais do que mera sobrevivência, Deus me encontrou bem onde eu estava. Deus usou minha angústia para me trazer a ele. Mesmo durante meu período de dor, Deus me usou para ajudar os outros. Quando eu segui Sua liderança, alcançando os necessitados, Eu recebi ainda mais cura para mim. Dentro 2 Corinthians 1:3-5, A Palavra de Deus diz, “Bendito seja o Deus e Pai de nosso Senhor Jesus Cristo, o Pai da misericórdia e o Deus de todo conforto, que nos conforta em todas as nossas aflições, para que possamos confortar aqueles que estão em qualquer aflição, com o conforto com que nós mesmos somos consolados por Deus. Pois como compartilhamos abundantemente nos sofrimentos de Cristo, então, por meio de Cristo, também compartilhamos abundantemente no conforto. (ESV) Deus nunca desperdiça nosso sofrimento. É tudo para um propósito específico. Alguns de vocês, queridos, têm sofrido por muito tempo, e meu coração está com você. Pode parecer muito solitário às vezes, mas Deus te vê. Ele te ama e tem um propósito para a sua dor.

Cristo sofreu uma morte horrível na cruz por nós. Ele também suportou tortura tendo sido açoitado, espancado, esbofeteado, atingido com varas e perfurado em seu crânio com uma coroa de espinhos. Se alguém conhece angústia e dor, é jesus. Venha para Jesus assim como você é, e ele vai te dar conforto. Só Ele pode carregá-lo quando você não pode dar mais um passo. Ele é o único que nunca vai te deixar. Ele não vai abusar de você ou tirar vantagem de você. O amor dele é puro, sagrado, justo e afirmador da vida. Seus caminhos levam à verdadeira liberdade e cura.

Como Deus usou o sofrimento em sua vida?

O que Deus está mostrando a você?

Um dia, Amado, estaremos na glória em um lugar chamado céu onde não há mais dor, tristeza ou choro - um lugar onde seremos abraçados pela paz e amor de Jesus.

Você é amado,
Toni

 

 

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