Pensamento fedorento: Minha visão distorcida de mim mesmo

Pensamento fedorento: Minha visão distorcida de mim mesmo

Pensamento fedorento: Minha visão distorcida de mim mesmo


por Toni Weisz/Stinking Thinking

 

Referências bíblicas: Isaías 43:18–19, Salmo 62:6-8, Salmo 27:10, John 8:32, and Romans 5:9

Pensamento fedorento refers to the negative or disturbing thoughts that torment us, especialmente quando estamos HALT (Hsem raiva, UMAcom raiva, euapenas ou Tirado). We will be looking at our distorted view of self. Aprenderemos a discernir a verdade das mentiras em que acreditamos durante toda a nossa vida. Nosso objetivo é equipá-lo para que você possa ter vitória em todas as áreas da sua vida.

Isaías 43:18–19
“Não te lembres das coisas anteriores, nem considere as coisas antigas. Contemplar, vou fazer uma coisa nova, agora ele brotará; você não saberá disso? Farei até uma estrada no deserto e rios no deserto”.

Salmo 62: 6–8
“Só ele é minha rocha e minha salvação; Ele é minha defesa; Eu não serei movido. Em Deus está minha salvação e minha glória; A rocha da minha força, e meu refúgio, está em Deus. Confie Nele em todos os momentos, vocês pessoas; derrame seu coração diante dele; Deus é um refúgio para nós.”

Salmo 27:10
Quando meu pai e minha mãe me abandonam, the Lord will take care of me.

John 8:32
“And you shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.”

Romanos 5:9
Much more then, having now been justified by His blood, we shall be saved from wrath through Him.

I was the oldest of three and came from a strict second-generation, Italian-American family. My father and his two brothers and sister ran a family-owned construction company started by my grandfather.

My grandfather had a drinking problem. And my dad acted like an alcoholic even though he did not drink. I refer to his behavior as a “rageaholic.” He worked extremely long hours and was dealing with a lot of stress and family drama. Ele não foi capaz de se comunicar de maneira saudável sem ficar com raiva e levantar a voz. He had a very short fuse. então, quando ele estava em casa, Eu literalmente gostaria de correr e me esconder.

My mom tried her best to control our home environment as not to cause my dad any stress. We had to be very quiet and obedient when he was home. The slightest thing could set him off. When my dad was at work, my mom had her own way of dealing with the chaos in our home. She yelled a lot too. It wasn’t a very calm or peaceful environment. But I believe they did the best they could. They were preoccupied with putting out fires that my sister and brother were starting. It was easy for me to hide in the shadows.

As a young child, how was I supposed to get the love and attention I needed? Depois do “bom, quiet one” persona was not working anymore, I started sneaking Scotch whiskey from my parents’ liquor cabinet at 12 anos. Now I was really hiding because of all of my secrets, which now were piling up, and it became even more difficult to keep up my façade. Por 13, Eu estava ficando chapado e usando outras drogas. No 16, I was having sex; then the unthinkable, my abortion at 21. My life was a disaster, one poor decision after another led me down a very dark path. I was very alone in this pit even though I had friends; no one really knew what I was suffering with because I wore the perfect mask. I was right where the evil one wanted me. Isolated, sozinho, and hiding in my secrets.

Now in my early 30’s after many years of destructive choices, mecanismos de cópia prejudiciais e vícios, minha auto-aversão estava no auge de todos os tempos. My depression would last for weeks at a time, and it was preventing me from functioning normally, and all the pain I had been stuffing all my life was coming out sideways. Eu não tinha controle sobre isso. Eu era como um vulcão ambulante. I literally just wanted to end this torment of a life. But God gave me two children, and I wasn’t going to leave them without a mom. então, I decided I needed to do something different because what I was doing was not working. I was tired of putting my mask on every day and pretending.

Eu senti que não era digno de ser amado. Na verdade, I thought I deserved to be emotionally abused by others because of my sin. Eu não me via como uma pessoa de valor para ninguém, nem mesmo para Deus. Esse padrão destrutivo continuaria até que eu estivesse 34, quando pela graça de Deus, Eu ouvi o evangelho e dentro 4 semanas fui salvo e pedi a Jesus para perdoar meus pecados e ser meu Senhor e Salvador. O dia mais lindo e memorável da minha vida é fevereiro 6, 1994, quando nasci de novo.

Mesmo depois da minha salvação, I felt I had to work for love and approval from God and especially from others in leadership at Church. My people-pleasing was consuming my life, e Deus me mostrou que isso é idolatria, that anything that I put above Him is a sin.

Over the past 20 anos, God has slowly been showing me my character defects and areas of sin, my codependency, people-pleasing, and lack of clear boundaries and how I was enabling unhealthy behavior. I didn’t love or respect myself so how could I expect others to. I allowed people to walk all over me, to manipulate and control me, but slowly over time, I started putting up boundaries and using my voice.

God helped me to see myself through His eyes of love, care, and compassion. Back in 2015 when struggling with rejection, I wrote out these words of affirmation that I read out loud to myself every day: I am worthy, I am loved, I belong, I am accepted, I am adopted, I am confident and competent, I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, I am a child of God, I am victorious in Christ, just to name a few. This is my Spiritual Armor; I put this on every morning to protect myself from the fiery darts of the enemy. Our battle is won and lost in our minds. What we believe about ourselves and about God matters. God’s word is truth, and the truth will make you free.

I hope I never take for granted the miracle that took place in my life 31 anos atrás, when I received the gift of salvation through the blood of Jesus shed on the cross for me.

QUESTIONS TO TAKE TO HEART:

  1. How has your distorted view of yourself opened you up to all kinds of abuse and sin as a way to cope with your pain?
  2. How did you see yourself?
  3. Who does God say you are? Give examples of Biblical truth.
  4. What do you do to put your Spiritual Armor on daily to protect yourself from the enemy?
  5. Como podemos orar por você?

I pray this topic has been helpful for you if you need to talk, you can text me or email me at: toni@myashestobeauty.com.

Você é amado, Toni

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Liberdade em Cristo

Liberdade em Cristo

John 8: 31-32, 34-36

Então Jesus disse aos judeus que acreditaram nele. “Se você permanecer na Minha palavra, vocês são meus discípulos de fato. E você conhecerá a verdade e a verdade o libertará. ” Jesus respondeu a eles, “Com certeza, Eu te digo, quem comete pecado é um escravo do pecado. E um escravo não mora na casa para sempre, mas um filho permanece para sempre. Portanto, se o filho te libertar, você será realmente livre. ”

Gálatas 5:1 Permanecei firmes, portanto, na liberdade pela qual Cristo nos tornou livres, e não se enrede novamente com um jugo de escravidão.

Citação de Ravi Zacharias, “O pecado vai te levar mais longe do que você quer ir, te manter mais tempo do que você quer ficar, e custar mais do que você deseja pagar. ”

Todos nós nascemos com uma natureza pecaminosa, por causa da queda de Adão e Eva no jardim, quando Eva pegou a fruta e a comeu e deu a seu marido para comer também, foi quando o pecado entrou no mundo. O pecado é destrutivo e todos nós somos servos do pecado. Por causa de nossa natureza pecaminosa, somos orgulhosos, egoísta, mentirosos, desobediente, bêbados, e assassinos, etc. Não temos a capacidade de interromper este ciclo destrutivo até encontrarmos o único que nunca pecou, Seu nome é Jesus nosso Salvador e Redentor.

O que significa liberdade em Cristo?? Liberdade em Cristo significa que não pertenço mais a Satanás e não sou mais um escravo do pecado, fazendo coisas que são ímpias. Eu tenho uma nova natureza, a Bíblia diz quando eu confesso e me arrependo (vez) dos meus pecados e creia em meu coração que Jesus é o Filho de Deus, que eu nasci de novo. Eu agora sou nascido do Espírito de Deus. Eu sou adotado pela família de Deus. Quando eu nasci de novo, o Espírito Santo agora habita em mim. Agora tenho a habilidade com a ajuda do Espírito Santo de tomar boas decisões que glorificam a Deus.

A morte de Jesus na cruz pagou minha dívida de pecado, Ele foi minha propiciação, meu substituto, Ele pagou a pena por todos os meus pecados e os pecados do mundo inteiro quando Ele morreu na cruz 2000 anos atrás. Por causa de sua morte por mim, Agora estou sem culpa diante de Deus, meus pecados foram cobertos pelo sangue do Cordeiro, tudo o que Deus vê é a justiça de Cristo. Deus me resgatou das garras do diabo, que uma vez me manteve cativo, e me colocou na palma da sua mão. Agora eu pertenço a Deus.

Como um crente em Jesus, estou livre do julgamento do Grande Trono Branco, que é para aqueles que não conhecem Jesus como seu Salvador pessoal. Existe um lugar literal chamado inferno que foi criado para o diabo e seus anjos. Aflige o Pai que qualquer um estará no inferno. Esta é a razão pela qual estou compartilhando isso com você hoje, é desejo de Deus que ninguém pereça, mas todos tenham vida eterna, Estou lhe dando esta informação agora, então se você não tem certeza de seu relacionamento com Jesus, agora é a hora de garantir que. Estou disponível para conversar, por favor me mande um email para arwsg4u2@gmail.com, e discutiremos isso mais adiante para que você possa saber com certeza que tem a vida eterna e que quando morrer estará no céu com Jesus.

Se você é um crente, você está diante do tribunal de Cristo, o assento Bema, você é julgado com base em coisas feitas na terra, boas ou más. Você receberá recompensas ou terá recompensas retiradas. Você tem a garantia de um lar no céu para sempre. Um lugar onde não haja mais tristeza, morte ou choro, onde Deus enxugará as lágrimas dos nossos olhos.

Eu tenho liberdade para viver minha vida de uma nova maneira. Em vez de ser egoísta e orgulhoso, sou um servo de Deus, Eu sou Suas mãos e pés neste mundo, para ministrar Seu amor, graça, e compaixão por todos ao meu redor. Agora estou mais preocupado com as necessidades dos outros do que com as minhas. O mínimo que posso fazer é servi-lo pelo que Ele fez por mim. Eu tenho uma nova vida, um novo propósito, uma nova família e um lar no céu quando eu morrer. Eu também vemos meu doce Joseph, meu filho, que abortei 40 anos atrás. Que dia doce será, Mal posso esperar para beijar a bochecha do meu filho e abraçar seu pescoço.

 

Questões de discussão

Você já se confessou e se arrependeu (virou-se) de seus pecados para Deus e você crê que Jesus é o Cordeiro de Deus sem pecado que morreu na cruz por seus pecados?

Se você não tem certeza de seu relacionamento com Jesus, por favor me mande um email para que possamos conversar mais detalhadamente.

 

Deus te abençoê,

Toni

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Limites - Por que são tão importantes?

Limites - Por que são tão importantes?

Salmo 34:18, Jeremiah 29:11, John 3:16

Personal boundaries, as defined by Psychology today, “Are the limits we set with other people, which indicate what we will accept and what we consider unacceptable behavior towards us. To know our boundaries comes from a healthy view of ourselves.” When that view is distorted due to emotional trauma as children (whether we did not get the love and care from our family which is a Type A Trauma or we were sexually, emotionally, or physically abused as children which is Type B Trauma). All these experiences as children cause us to have a distorted view of ourselves, Deus, and others and it prevents us from maturing into healthy stable adults. (Living from the Heart Jesus Gave You, A Life Model Book)

This distorted view of ourselves especially those of us who have had abortions opens up the door to all kinds of unhealthy and destructive behavior. God created women to love and nurture their children and then we did the opposite. Our hopes and dreams as young girls are dashed, and we are now open to all kinds of unhealthy destructive coping mechanisms and ungodly behavior to deal with our pain. Our very souls are tormented and we feel desperately alone, depressed and even suicidal.

So how can we stop this destructive cycle of accepting and enabling unhealthy behavior from others? Primeiro, we must realize we have a Savior and a friend who is the lover of our soul, and His name is Jesus. He is the only one that can heal our broken spirits, our broken bodies and our broken minds. Salmo 34:18 ESV “The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves the crushed in spirit.” He is the only one that can take the disaster we have made of our lives and restore order and peace. And He alone can give us a new hope, new dreams, um novo propósito, and a new life. Jeremiah 29:11 NVI, “For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.”

In childhood, I did not learn what healthy boundaries look like. I became a people pleaser at a very young age and as a result I allowed people to take advantage of me and treat me very poorly and I never said a word. I wondered why I never truly felt loved by others; what was it? I was allowing all kinds of unhealthy behavior because I didn’t love and respect myself, especialmente depois do meu aborto. I now despised myself. I didn’t understand why others didn’t treat me with love, kindness and compassion. I realized they cannot give what they do not have. But that took many decades for me to come to that understanding. I also recognized that they did the best they could with what they had and I released them into God’s Hands and started praying for and forgave them.

We all have our wounds and issues from our past, which causes us to be self-consumed and blinded, and we cannot see how we are hurting others closest to us. Only God can give us awareness and the courage to stop accepting unacceptable behavior and establish healthy boundaries. For the first time, I used my voice to explain my boundaries and insist they be respected. There was some push back but I was not going to waiver. At first, putting up boundaries is hard to do. But as God heals us, we get stronger, bolder and more courageous, and we no longer want to just exist, we want to experience the abundant life Jesus came to give us. The first step in recovery is recognizing my life is unmanageable and I need God to help me.

Querido, I want you to know that God loves you so much that He sent His Son to die on the cross for you. (John 3:16) Have you received this gift of love and forgiveness from God? If not you can do that today? If you do know the Lord, then ask Him to help you to love yourself and to have courage to put up boundaries and no longer accept unhealthy behavior. He will help you if you ask Him, He did it for me and I know He will do it for you too.

 

 

Bênçãos,

Toni

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Pensamento fedorento: Ansiedade

Pensamento fedorento: Ansiedade

Pensamento fedorento: Ansiedade

por Toni Weisz/Stinking Thinking

Escrituras: Philippians 4:6-7, Mateus 6:25-26, 31 e 33, Salmo 121:2 and Matthew 10:31

Philippians 4:6-7
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication (humbly asking) with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God, and the peace of God that surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

Mateus 6:25-26, 31, e 33
“Therefore I say to you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink; nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not your life more than food and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather in barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? “Therefore, do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For after all these things the gentiles seek. For your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness and all these things shall be added to you.”

Salmo 121:2
My help comes from the Lord, who made heaven and earth.

 

When I was a young child, I worried about everything. When I left a homework assignment at home accidentally, I went into a panic. What is my teacher going to think or say to me?

Frantically, I would call my mom, “Can you please bring my assignment to school?”

She said to me, “You are such a worry wart.”

I was so anxious that my perfect mask would be exposed, that people might see the real me, an insecure people-pleaser, seeking approval from others so I could feel good about myself. I so desperately needed to feel like I belonged, that I was a person of value. I was continually striving for perfection to receive love and accolades from others. But that didn’t work; it only left me feeling alone and depleted.

As an adult, I became anxious when I negatively projected into the future. When I did this, I felt weak, hopeless, and discouraged. My head and eyes were cast down, and I felt like giving up. But when I recognized I was looking inward, then I reminded myself, “My help comes from the Lord,” (Salmo 121:2) and I looked up to heaven.

God has promised us in His Word that He will meet all of our needs. “Are you not of more value than many sparrows?” Matthew 10:31

But unfortunately, I did not trust Him. I made some very bad decisions because I did not trust Him with my future, my life, my marriage, or my children. I had to be in control, and relinquishing that control was a scary thing for me.

I thought I could minimize my anxiety by trying to control everyone and everything. But I realized that was impossible to do, and it made me very frustrated and emotionally drained. I used to jump in to fix, resgatar, and save others because I became anxious about all the what ifs.

I realized I cannot save, resgatar, or fix anyone; only God can. I was sinning against God by not trusting Him in every area of my life. I had to believe He is a good God and He can take care of me and my family.

I remember in my journaling, God telling me, “Get out of My way; you are preventing Me from working in your family.” IN ALL CAPS, TOO. God was not happy with me. God showed me that my lack of trust in Him was a sin and putting others before Him was an idol. He showed me that He was not like my earthly parents; He was kind and gentle, loving, caring, and full of compassion. I repented and turned away from my sin of unbelief and turned to God.

I no longer struggle with feeling anxious. I have learned to pray and bring all my concerns to Him. I believe only He can provide for all my needs. I am finally free of that sick thinking and character defect that kept me stuck and fretting for so many decades.

Obrigada, senhor, for the gift of your presence in my life, for the Holy Spirit to remind me that I am Yours!!! Thank you that I am not alone; You are always with me.

Perguntas para levar a sério:

  1. Did you struggle with anxiety? What kinds of things would make you anxious?
  2. Are you still struggling with anxiety?
  3. What are some things you do to help you overcome your anxiety?
  4. Como podemos orar por você?

Rezo para que este tópico tenha sido útil para você. Entre em contato se precisar conversar: toni@myashestobeauty.com.

Você é amado,

Toni

Pensamento fedorento: Justificação - justificando meu pecado

Pensamento fedorento: Justificação - justificando meu pecado

Pensamento fedorento: Justificação - justificando meu pecado

Genesis 3: 8-13 and Proverbs 11:14b

And they heard the sound of the Lord God walking in the garden in the cool of the day, and Adam and his wife hid themselves from the presence of the Lord God among the trees of the garden. Then the Lord God called to Adam and said to him, “Where are you?” So he said, “I heard Your voice in the garden, and I was afraid because I was naked; and I hid myself.” And He said, “Who told you that you were naked? Have you eaten from the tree of which I commanded you that you should not eat?” Then the man said, “The woman whom You gave to be with me, she gave me of the tree, and I ate.” And the Lord God said to the woman, “What is this you have done?” The woman said, “The serpent deceived me, and I ate.”

Stinking Thinking refers to the negative thoughts that torment us especially when we are HALT: Hungry, Angry, Lonely or Tired; thoughts such as a distorted view of God and self, Pensamento negativo, justificação, medo, e ansiedade. Abordaremos cada um desses tópicos para que possamos discernir entre as mentiras em que acreditamos ao longo dos anos e substituí-las pela verdade de Deus. Nosso objetivo é equipá-lo para que possa ter vitória nessas áreas.

I define justification, more specifically justifying sin, as the belief that I am making a right or reasonable decision, when in fact the opposite is true. I have heard almost every excuse to justify a woman’s choice for an abortion; I had several myself. I allowed the enemy to isolate me and to lie to me, just like he did to Adam and Eve when they ate the forbidden fruit and sinned against God. As a result of my sin, I rushed to make my decision and not ask for help or discuss it with anyone. It’s the one thing we as woman don’t ask for help with, why is that? We talk to our friends or family about other decisions we make, but why not this one? I believe the enemy immediately swoops in and starts flooding our minds with all kinds of chaos, coupled with lies, medo, e ansiedade. This combination is overwhelming to our minds and we scramble to stop the noise in our heads so we can return to normal. I did not have my abortion until my second trimester, but I had my mind made up immediately I was going to have an abortion. I had to wait months to have my procedure because I didn’t follow protocol and ate before my first scheduled abortion so I had to reschedule. I had to make 2 abortion appointments! Perhaps God was giving me a way to escape, but I wasn’t seeking His counsel. Instead I felt justified in my decision to move forward with the abortion.

The reasons I used to justify my abortion were the following: I believed the lie that my baby would be severely deformed because I was doing heavy drugs, drinking excessively, and smoking 2-3 packs of cigarettes per day. I was still in college in Ohio with no job and I thought I can’t have a child now! I believed the father of the child would leave me to raise the child on my own. But the biggest reason was that I was afraid to tell my parents. I regret that I did not have the courage to admit to my parents that I made a mistake. I never gave them an opportunity to have a say in my decision because I took matters into my own hands. My fear and pride prevented me from telling the truth, I wish I would have told them, because I could have my 40-year-old son with me today. But I cannot go back and change my past, all I can do is learn from it and understand why this broken frightened woman could not tell her parents the truth. I remember when after watching the movie, “Unplanned”, I was at my laundry room sink and the Holy Spirit whispered to my heart, “Every child in the womb is mine,” tears filled my eyes and I replied, “I know Lord and I robbed you of the baby in my womb and I am so sorry.”

Sin is never justified. Looking back at our first parents, Adam and Eve. We see they pointed their finger at someone else to justify their sin before God. The exchange is quite interesting and we use the same tactics today. In Genesis 3, after Adam and Eve eat the forbidden fruit, God is calling to them, “Where are you?” God called Adam by his name wanting him to confess his sin but instead he justified his sin and accused the woman who God gave him, and Eve likewise accusing the serpent. Instead of taking responsibility for their sins, they blamed someone else. Their pride prevented them from humbling themselves before God and repenting of their sin. My pride prevented me from asking my parents and God for help in my abortion decision. Instead I listened to the devil, and I suffered for years as a result of my decision.

We are here to help you make life affirming God glorifying decisions in your lives. Provérbios 11:14b, “In the multitude of counselors there is safety.” Please reach out if you are struggling with making good decisions.

May I ask you a few questions?

What were your reasons for your abortion(é), that at the time you felt were justified?

How do you see your decision-making process now?

What were the lies you believed?

What is the truth that God has shown you?

 

Bênçãos,

Toni

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