senhor, Eu quero ser curado

senhor, Eu quero ser curado

senhor, I Want to Be Healed

por Toni Weisz/Disciplinas Espirituais

Referências bíblicas: John 10:10b, Efésios 3:20, Isaías 41:10, Lucas 19:10 e Salmo 40:1–3

 

If we truly want to be healed from our past trauma, we must be willing to surrender all to God. We must step out and trust Him completely in this process even when it gets scary and it’s unpredictable and out of our control.

For those who have experienced abuse and abortion in our past, it is hard to let go of control because it was our protection, so we thought.

We have to come to the point where we don’t want to just survive; we want to live the abundant life Jesus came to give us (Read John 10:10b). We no longer want to just settle; we want to experience true love and acceptance, perhaps for the first time in our lives.

If you are reading this blog, you most likely have decided you want to be healed, too. You are courageous and tired of the life you were living and want more. You want to stop the cycle of dysfunction in your life and for future generations. This is a long and very hard process, but it is worth it.

If you are willing, God is able to do exceedingly abundantly more than what you can ask or think (Read Ephesians 3:20). That’s the God we serve. He is not limited by time and space. He is eternal.

I remember back in 2006, when God called me to the post–abortion healing and recovery ministry, starting a journal called, “Why are the relationships closest to me toxic?” God gave me awareness that there was something going on in my relationships with those closest to me. But what was it? I was the common denominator, so what was I doing to enable these toxic relationships?

I discovered many answers over a ten-year period of relentlessly going to God as a broken surrendered woman, “Lord I want to be healed from all the pain, rejeição, abuso, and my abortion. I want to be set free from my people-pleasing, fear of authority figures, and codependency. I want to know your love in the innermost parts of my being. I want to feel loved, cherished, and safe, but how do I get there?” Please read my blog, “When I Finally Received the Love of Jesus in My Heart.” https://myashestobeauty.com/when-i-finally-received-the-love-of-jesus-in-my-heart-toni-weisz-abortion-recovery-and-abuse-support-group/

God was so gentle with me because He knew how fragile I was after a lifetime of pain, rejeição, and trauma. He was leading me with His righteous right hand on a path of healing that was so difficult at times, but it was also beautiful (Read Isaiah 41:10).

I discovered the heart of God on this journey, e para isso, I am most grateful. To know the Father’s heart towards us is life transforming. He is love, gentle, kind, faithful, peaceful, generous, powerful, and eternal. He is close to the abused, neglected, abandonado, and broken. He came to seek and to save the lost (Read Luke 19:10). We were all that at one point. But God in His infinite wisdom, His abounding grace and love picked us up out of the pit and placed us on the Rock, Jesus Christ, our Lord, our strong foundation (Read Psalm 40:2).

Hallelujah!!! Obrigada, Jesus.

Perguntas para levar a sério:

  1. When did God show you the dysfunction in your life?
  2. What was your next step after your awareness?
  3. How is God healing you? Who or what did He use to accomplish this?
  4. Como podemos orar por você?

Please reach out if you need prayer or a word of encouragement. You can email me at: toni@myashestobeauty.com.

I watched this movie trailer recently that truly blessed my heart: Kendrick Brothers’ Show me the Father.

Here is the YouTube trailer: https://youtu.be/k4g0CFfGkMk

I pray it blesses your heart also.

 

Você é amado,

Toni

 

Eu faço novas todas as coisas

Eu faço novas todas as coisas

Eu faço novas todas as coisas
Por Toni Weisz/Disciplinas Espirituais

 

Referências bíblicas: Revelação 21:1–5, Efésios 2:8–9, Efésios 3:14–21

Revelação 21:1–5
Agora eu vi um novo céu e uma nova terra, pois o primeiro céu e a primeira terra já passaram. Também não havia mais mar. Então eu, John, vi a cidade santa, Nova Jerusalém, descendo do céu da parte de Deus, preparada como uma noiva adornada para seu marido. E ouvi uma voz alta do céu dizendo, "Contemplar, o tabernáculo de Deus está com os homens, e Ele habitará com eles, e eles serão o Seu povo. O próprio Deus estará com eles e será seu Deus. E Deus enxugará toda lágrima de seus olhos; não haverá mais morte, nem tristeza, nem chorando. Não haverá mais dor, porque as coisas anteriores já passaram.”

Então Aquele que estava sentado no trono disse, "Contemplar, Eu faço novas todas as coisas.” E Ele me disse, "Escrever, pois estas palavras são verdadeiras e fiéis.”

Deus me deu, e aqueles que servem comigo neste ministério, um privilégio especial caminhar ao lado de vocês, mulheres corajosas e corajosas, em sua jornada de cura. Vimos você ficar arrasado e com medo de compartilhar seus segredos de trauma de abortos e abusos anteriores. Você tem medo da condenação e do julgamento. Deixar de lado seus segredos não é uma coisa fácil, especialmente para aqueles que os carregam há muitas décadas.

Mas nosso misericordioso e amoroso Pai não quer mais que você faça isso sozinho. Ele quer que você seja curada para se tornar a mulher que Ele criou você para ser.

Eu vi Deus em minha própria vida quebrar, deprimido, suicida, mulher atormentada e me levante do chão, e me mostre Seu grande amor, abrindo meus olhos espirituais para ver que eu era um pecador indo para o inferno.

Minha vida foi transformada quando ouvi pela primeira vez o Evangelho de que Jesus nasceu de uma virgem, viveu uma vida sem pecado, foi crucificado, morreu, sepultado e ressuscitou ao terceiro dia, para derrotar a morte e Satanás. Ele tomou meu lugar na cruz, Ele pagou minha dívida de pecado. Corri para Jesus para me resgatar do tormento de uma vida que eu estava vivendo 34 anos. Eu nunca poderei retribuir a Ele pelo dom da salvação que Ele me deu.

Efésios 2:8–9
Pois pela graça você foi salvo por meio da fé, e isso não vem de vocês; é o dom de Deus, não de obras, para que ninguém se glorie.

Nosso processo de cura é uma jornada para toda a vida. Fiquei surpreso com o quão quebrado e disfuncional eu estava quando comecei minha cura lá atrás. 2006. O tempo todo o inimigo me enganou que eu estava bem, não há necessidade de olhar para o meu trauma passado porque foi há muito tempo. “Eu estava bem.”

Isso não poderia estar mais longe da verdade. Você vê, o maligno quer nos manter isolados sentados na escuridão sendo atormentados por ele porque então ele nos tem exatamente onde nos quer.

Mas Deus não quer mais que Suas filhas sejam atormentadas. Ele quer que sejamos curados e libertos do inimigo e da nossa visão distorcida da verdade. Ele quer que tenhamos a coragem de dar um passo à frente e confiar que Ele nos guiará. Ele quer que usemos nossa voz e nosso testemunho para ajudar outros a dar um passo também. É um processo difícil, mas é tão lindo porque Jesus nos conduz gentilmente pela Sua destra justa.

Jesus me deu uma nova vida, uma nova música, e um novo propósito. Ele fez novas todas as coisas para mim, e eu sei que Ele pode fazer isso por você também se você se humilhar diante Dele e confiar Nele. Ele te ama mais do que você pode compreender.

Minha oração por você:
Efésios 3:14–21

Por esta razão me dobro de joelhos diante do Pai de nosso Senhor Jesus Cristo, de quem toda a família no céu e na terra recebe o nome, que Ele lhe concederia, segundo as riquezas da Sua glória, ser fortalecido com poder através do Seu Espírito no homem interior, para que Cristo habite em vossos corações pela fé; que você, estar enraizado e fundamentado no amor, possa ser capaz de compreender com todos os santos qual é a largura, o comprimento, a profundidade e a altura - conhecer o amor de Cristo que excede todo o conhecimento; para que você seja cheio de toda a plenitude de Deus.

Ora, àquele que é poderoso para fazer muito mais abundantemente além daquilo que pedimos ou pensamos, de acordo com o poder que opera em nós, a Ele seja a glória na igreja por Cristo Jesus, por todas as gerações, para sempre e sempre. Amém.

 

Se você está se perguntando como você também pode ter esta nova vida em Jesus:

Primeiro, devemos ter um relacionamento com Jesus, nosso Salvador. Ele é nosso curador. Não há verdadeira mudança de vida sem Ele. (Salvação)

Segundo, devemos ter coragem de sair e confiar Nele. Isso é difícil de fazer, mas devemos confiar Nele neste processo. (Confiar)

Terceiro, devemos gastar tempo diariamente lendo a Palavra de Deus e orando. (Devoções Diárias)

Quarto, devemos ser responsáveis ​​perante os outros. (Responsabilidade)

Quinto, devemos continuar a querer ser curados em todos os nossos lugares quebrados. Este é um processo que dura a vida toda. (Perseverança)

Sexto, we then go out and share our testimony so other women will have the courage to step out and be healed. (Sharing Our Testimony)


Perguntas para levar a sério:

  1. Where are you in your healing process? Salvação, Confiar, Devoções Diárias, Responsabilidade, Perseverança, or Sharing Your Testimony?
  2. Are you ready to go to the next level in your healing?
  3. How can we encourage you on your healing journey?

Rezo para que este tópico tenha sido útil para você. Please reach out to me at: toni@myashestobeauty.com.

Você é amado,

Toni

 

“You Make all Things New”
Big Daddy Weave

https://youtu.be/4_2aX_i4qpM?si=bJrJBO7ppX2n4j2Q

 

Guerra Espiritual

Guerra Espiritual

The Enemy Is Prowling
por Toni Weisz/Guerra Espiritual

Referências bíblicas: 1 Peter 5:8, Romanos 8:1 e Filipenses 4:13

 

Be sober, be vigilant; for your adversary the devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour. 1 Peter 5:8

I have been under a barrage of attacks by the evil one since I shared the gospel in a letter to two of my family members. I want them to hear the gospel one more time so they can have confidence that when they pass from this life to the next, they can know they are saved and will be in heaven when they die. Not only that, but at the time of this writing, we have three, and possibly four, Recovery Bible Studies starting within the next few weeks. That’s a lot of women hearing the gospel, being healed and set free from the trauma of abortion and abuse.

The first week, the enemy used family. My kids were not in a good place, some hard conversations happened, and people were offended. Finalmente, they were able to communicate and work things out, without my help. The enemy was trying to get me to fret and worry and jump in and to take matters into my own hands (my old character defect of codependency and fear) instead of trusting God.

Then on a Saturday, the enemy used people in spiritual leadership. Ce were in a group setting, but I felt ignored and not included in the discussions. God showed me from this example what not to do as a spiritual leader. I am to be aware of everyone in the group. Ce all need encouragement and to feel included.

Then on uma Sunday, a leader at church made a weird comment. Again, God showed me how important my words are. They can uplift people or put people down. The enemy was trying to use spiritual leaders to peuck my rejection wound, desiring to awaken my people-pleasing character defect (my old character defect of people pleasing, putting others before God, which is idolatry).

Then a few days later, tele enemy used a woman who was very involved in serving in this ministry for many years, to react in a peculiar way and say some hurtful things. This one hurt pretty deeply. Again, I did not react. I actually did not send a text I had written because honestly, I did not know what to say. Em vez de, I prayed for her because obviously she is not in a good place. My old character defect of condemnation, listening to the lies of the enemy accusing me, was trying to make a comeback.

I was thinking to myself, “What in the world is going on?” Any one of these scenarios in the past would have pushed me over the edge, and I would have reacted badly or taken on rejection. Or my people pleasing would have kicked in and I would have scrambled around trying to make things right.

But because of the work God has been doing in my life over these 17 anos, I am able to see with my spiritual eyes what is going on.

I am so grateful God healed my rejection wound and que I no longer yearn for the approval of man. I want my life to please God. I am grateful there is no condemnation to them who are in Christ Jesus (referência. Romanos 8:1).

The accuser has no dominion over me. The Word of God has set me free, and the Holy Spirit protects me from the fiery darts of the enemy.

Eu posso fazer todas as coisas através de Cristo que me fortalece. (Filipenses 4:13)

I am so thankful to God for equipping the called. If God calls you to something, be confident that He will give you everything you need to succeed.

Perguntas para levar a sério:

  1. What kind of spiritual warfare have you been experiencing lately?
  2. Have you noticed a pattern? When are you most vulnerable to the enemy’s attacks?
  3. Como podemos orar por você?

Rezo para que este tópico tenha sido útil para você. Please reach out if you need to talk or need prayer. Envie-me um e-mail para: toni@myashestobeauty.com.

Você é amado,
Toni

Nossos sonhos frustrados

Nossos sonhos frustrados

Nossos sonhos frustrados
por Toni Weisz/Disciplinas Espirituais

 

Referências bíblicas

Jeremiah 29:11 (NVI)
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.

Isaías 61:7 (ESV)
Instead of your shame there shall be a double portion; instead of dishonor they shall rejoice in their lot; therefore, in their land they shall possess a double portion; they shall have everlasting joy.

I never imagined I would abort my first child. I grew up in a large Italian family. (My mom was one of ten children.) At our family get-togethers, there were always children running around. I was the oldest granddaughter, so it was my job to look after the younger ones so the adults could talk without interruptions.

I loved children, and I even thought about getting a teaching degree. What happened to my childhood dreams? How did I go so far off the path I thought would be my life?

Sin destroyed my dreams. I decided that being the “good, quiet one” wasn’t working for me anymore. I wasn’t getting the love and attention I needed, so I decided to take matters into my own hands—a true recipe for disaster.

No 12 anos, I started experimenting with alcohol and began sneaking shots of Scotch whiskey while my parents were at my brother’s football practices. My sister and I were left at home to do the dishes for a short while, but that’s all the devil needed—a little bit of time to get me alone and wanting.

My child-brain started thinking of ways to get my needs met but in unhealthy ways. This destructive path the enemy led me down was one of drugs, álcool, numerous sexual partners, and then my abortion at 21. It was a dark and destructive journey. I hid in my secrets and was tormented by the devil.

How did I get here? One bad choice after another after another; it happens that fast.

I would continue in this self-destructive pattern for 22 anos. Thankfully, God finally rescued me at the age of 34 when I heard the gospel for the first time. Jesus died on the cross for MY SINS. I had never heard that before. I desperately needed and wanted someone to take all my sins, shame, and guilt.

I needed a Savior—someone to love me just for me. I found all those things in a relationship with Jesus. I am so grateful for the love, forgiveness, and peace I found in Him.

God has turned my mourning into joy. He has given me a new name, a new life, and a new calling.

No matter what you have done in your past, God is able to forgive and redeem what the devil has stolen. You can still have a wonderful, fulfilling, God-glorifying life. It just may look a little different from your original plan. But rest assured, God is a good Father and has a good plan for your life.

Will you allow Him to help you dream new dreams?

 

Perguntas & Final Thoughts:

  1. What were some of your childhood dreams?
  2. Did the devil steal your dreams of having children and a family?
  3. How have you been able to move on and dream new dreams?
  4. Como podemos orar por você?

I pray that the Lord will minister to your broken heart and give you new dreams. Please reach out if you need a listening ear or a word of encouragement. Email: toni@myashestobeauty.com.

Você é amado,
Toni

 

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Ferramentas que o inimigo usa para nos manter em cativeiro (Parte 1–3)

Ferramentas que o inimigo usa para nos manter em cativeiro (Parte 1–3)

Ferramentas que o inimigo usa para nos manter em cativeiro (Parte 1): Temer

by Toni Weisz/ Recovery Tools

 

Referências bíblicas

2 Timothy 1:7
For God has not given me the Spirit of fear, but of power and of love and a sound mind.

1 John 4:18
There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment. But he who fears has not been made perfect in love.

 

Question: What is preventing me from recognizing I have a problem?

 

Fear is a tool the enemy uses to keep me in my dysfunction: the fear of change, the fear of the unknown, and fear that if I do change, I will lose a relationship.

What are your fears? Make a list of them all.

What is preventing you from truly looking at your life and asking God to help you change?

When I truly ask and seek the truth, God shows me my wounds and the lies I believe about Him, myself, e outros. Once He shows me those areas, I accept them and seek His wisdom to change the things I can.

My areas of woundedness were once fear of rejection and abandonment, and believing the lie that if I was perfect, I would be loved. These fears caused me to become a people-pleaser and made me think I had to earn love from others and God.

I believed God would not forgive my sin of abortion, that my sin was too great. Now I know that was a lie from the enemy to keep me in bondage. I also believed I deserved to be emotionally abused because of my sins.

All this unhealthy thinking kept me in emotionally abusive relationships, isolation, depressão, and hopelessness. But God in His mercy and grace filled my heart with His unfailing love, giving me the courage to step out of the darkness into His beautiful transforming light.

He helped me recognize the root causes of these lies and how to shred those lies to pieces using the Sword of the Spirit, the Word of God.

 

Como podemos orar por você?

I pray this topic has helped you to discover and conquer the fears and the root causes in your own life. Please reach out if you need prayer or a word of encouragement. Email: toni@myashestobeauty.com.

Você é amado,
Toni

Tools the Enemy Uses Blog Toni Weisz Post-Abortion healing and recovery support group

Ferramentas que o inimigo usa para nos manter em cativeiro (Parte 2): Negócio

by Toni Weisz/Recovery Tools

 

Referências bíblicas:

Salmo 46:10
Be still and know that I am God.

Efésios 2:8–9
Pois pela graça você foi salvo por meio da fé, e isso não vem de vocês; é o dom de Deus, not of works lest anyone should boast.

Romanos 8:15–16a
For you did not receive the spirit of bondage again to fear, but you received the Spirit of adoption by whom we cry out, “Abba Father.” The Spirit Himself bears witness with our spirit that we are children of God.

Romanos 8:38–39
For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

 

I was always busy with so many things that I didn’t have time to think about the toxic relationships I had with some close family members. I was so involved in my children’s school and after school activities, teaching and serving at church, and raising my family that I did not have time to look at myself and recognize that I was enabling unhealthy behavior.

It was fall of 2001, and I was pushing myself hard physically so I could compete against 24-year-olds in tennis at the age of 42. I would be exhausted, but I forced myself to work out anyway.

We attended a church where obeying the rules was the most important thing. It was all a show, e in the meantime, my épirit was so grieved I could barely feel the Spirit of God in me.

Then came September 11, and my husband was flying that day from Philly to CA. For many hours, I did not know where he was or how he was. When I watched planes crash into the Twin Towers, I just remember going into shock. John’s family was calling, and I had no information on his waquiabouts.

Shortly after that in October, I fell on the tennis court and hurt myself so badly that I had a huge bulge in my right hip area. As time passed, it got worse, and I could not walk after a while because the pain shot through my entire body. From Thanksgiving through New Years, I was confined to laying on the couch because I was unable to stand or walk for long periods of time.

I couldn’t do anything for several months. For the first time, I had to allow others to do things for me. It was very humbling. I had a complete mental, físico, emotional and spiritual breakdown. My children were in high échool at that time, and they would sit at my feet on the couch and do their homework. I thank God for that special memory.

It was during the time of my confinement that God whispered to my heart, “I love you regardless of whether you serve me on all these committees at Church or you lay on the couch for the rest of your life. I love you the same. My love for you never changes. My love for you is not based upon your good works or being worthy to be loved; My love is based upon My Son’s death on the cross for your sins.”

God knew I was working for acceptance from others and Him. I was raised in a works-based religion, and I felt because of the sins from my past—all the drugs, álcool, sex outside of marriage and my abortion—that I needed to make an atonement for my sins somehow. I didn’t understand that there was nothing I could do to earn salvation; it was a gift from God (Ref. Efésios 2:8–9).

It took 10 years for that truth to finally make ité way to my heart. But once it did, it changed my whole world forever. I finally felt loved and accepted by God. I didn’t have to be good enough or check a box to be loved and accepted. I realized I needed to believe God’s Word. I can now say with confidence that I have been adopted by God, I am His child, and nothing can separate me from His love (Referência. Romanos 8:15–16uma, 38–39).

 

Questions to Take to Heart:

  1. What are you doing to keep yourself so busy that you are not dealing with your stuff?
  2. What are you running away from?
  3. How can/did you stop the busyness in your life?
  4. Como podemos orar por você?

Rezo para que este tópico tenha sido útil para você. Please reach out if you need prayer or a word of encouragement. Email: toni@myahsestobeauty.com.

Você é amado,
Toni

 

 

Ferramentas que o inimigo usa para nos manter em cativeiro (Parte 3): Pontos cegos

by Toni Weisz/Recovery Tools

 

Referências bíblicas:

Salmo 119:18
“Open my eyes, that I may see wondrous things out of Your Law.”

John 8:31–32
“Then Jesus said to those Jews who believed Him, ‘If you abide in My word, you will be my disciples indeed. And you shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.’”

 

Blind spots are areas in my life in which I have been wounded and where I cannot see my character defects, sins, and unhealthy coping mechanisms.

My life was filled with destructive choices, all of which contributed to my woundedness and blind spots. Only God could show me these blind spots and help me to see what areas in my life I needed to work through and change.

No passado, a blind spot for me was being overly protective of my children. When I was a young mom and not a believer yet, I was fearful that God would punish me for my past abortion and take one of my children. I remember when my children hit três years of age, Eu pensei, “Oh good, I don’t have to worry about that.”

But I still parented out of fear because I didn’t want my children to make the same mistakes. They were not permitted to participate in many activities their public school friends participated in because of the church we were attending at the time.

God’s Word shined light in these dark areas that were hidden for so many years. This light set me free from my fears, helping me to trust Him to release my children into His capable hands and allow them to make their own choices.

Later on, I had to apologize to my children for not allowing them to do certain things but also for being way too protective of them. They knew my heart, and they forgave me.

Another area que I had a huge blind spot was in my relationships with others. I did not see how I was allowing others to take advantage of me by manipulating and controlling me. I never developed a voice because I was fearful of rejection and abandonment, which caused me to accept this unacceptable behavior.

I felt I deserved to be abused because of my past sins, which was a lie from the devil. I hated myself and did not respect myself. So, how could I expect others to love and respect me? I allowed others to control and manipulate me because I put their opinions above God’s in my life.

Meu povo–pleasing was out of control, and I could never say no because I didn’t want to disappoint others. então, I ran around like an idiot, exhausted physically and emotionally drained and all along feeling very empty and unloved inside.

Why was I doing these things? Oh, yes, so others will see value in me and love me.

Well, that never worked. The only one who ever saw value and worth in me was God.

Over time, God was removing the blindness, and I started seeing my unhealthy thinking. As I was seeking Him more and the truth about my past, He started revealing things to me that I did not see before.

I am so thankful for the day when God filled me with His love so completely that I finally stopped looking to humans to approve of me or love me. I was content solely in my relationship with the Lord. He was the only one I needed. This perspective changed my life forever. I am so grateful for God showing me my blind spots so I could know the truth, confess my sins, repent and be set free.

Ask God to show you what your blind spots are.

Perguntas:

What areas has God revealed to you that were blind spots?

Can you share them with the group?

Como podemos orar por você?

I pray this topic has helped you to discover blind spots in your own life. Please reach out if you need prayer or a word of encouragement. Email: toni@myashestobeauty.com.

 

In His love and service,

— Toni

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